[JaneRaine123]

This is about something I have occasionally thought about which is why I will sometimes avoid using the stairs as I don't really want to fall down the stairs either on purpose or accidentally. I just really want to get away from the bully at work who is causing me anxiety. It is such an unreal experience to have someone treat you as well as a few others at work in an irrational way that is difficult to address. I wondering how you are coping now. I'm almost past coping as I am stuck in a situation that any rational person would walk away from. Yet I have family and friends telling me that I have the right to work without harassment and that I should confront the bully, which is the only reason I'm still at the job. Though I'm trying to stay under the radar rather then confront as confronting can only make some people more irrational. Someday I will escape this nightmare and it won't be by falling down the stairs or any other dangerous way, but in a rational move to protect myself and go on with my life away from the damage that bullying is doing to me. I don't want to be injured, I all ready am from the bullying, nor do I want to commit suicide, I want to live a happy life without the overwhelming anxiety that bullying causes, I recently learned of PTSD and learned that wanting to self harm can be one of it's symptom, but self harm will not make me feel emotionally better only crazier which I don't need. Thanks for listening. That's me under the chair, trying to stay under the bully's radar, it doesn't work very well, but falling down stairs is out of the question as I am all ready injured mentally by the bullying which has caused physical symptoms as well, so I don't need more damage to my spirit , mind or body.