[str8uptruthandlove]

DISCLAIMER: Being unemployed does not make one worthless. This is a case of "correlation is not causation". I am unemployed, which makes me FEEL as though I am worthless. I am stating a feeling, not a fact or a judgement about anyone else.


I was working as an injection molder at a performance plastics factory as a temp (without health insurance or dental or PTO) for 5 months, then the stupid temp agency ended my contract. I know that I missed too much work, however as a temp I accrued occurrences 2x faster than a direct hire. Essentially, they set up temps to fail and then lead them on for months ("I'm sure you'll be hired on soon", etc) while ultimately just waiting for them to give up. In case it matters, I was at 112% productivity. I was good at my job. But they threw me away like yesterday's newspaper.

I can't ever be a temp again. The temp agency offered to find me something else, but that whole experience was such a slap in the face. Nobody likes to feel disposable. I gave that factory 5 months of my blood, sweat and tears (literally). Then was cast out without so much as a "thanks for your service". Talk about adding insult to injury -- I couldn't get my stuff (including my debit card and drivers license) from my locker for 2 full days!

Can a poorly-done firing be traumatic? Not like PTSD bad but... I'm scared to get another job. The job before the last one was even worse. I am TERRIFIED of whatever ways the next job will find to make my depression worse...

I wish I could interview the employer. It seems the only way to find out if a job will make me better or worse emotionally is time. How will I know if coworkers are immature, gossipy jerks unless I show up and find out first hand? It's not like a hiring manager would tell me, "Yeah, the assistant manager is emotionally abusive to new hires, she'll probably make you cry within the first week" (or something very honest like that).

I have enough diagnoses that I probably could qualify for disability (I think bipolar alone would qualify me). But money is only half the issue. A job would keep me busy... I just need to figure out how to tell if a job is going to be "safe". Or actually walk out when something isn't okay.

Sorry for the rambling. Shutting up now...

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you've been treated this badly. It's understandable you'd feel this way..

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Short answer:
Until you have worked there several weeks there is no way to tell if it is safe/unsafe or if the atmosphere is just a product of current circumstances.

There are many activities one can do even if they do not work. Dont let that be the thing that stops you from disability if you need it.

❤