[12AM]

I don’t know why I’m posting here. Maybe some part of me wants to get help. I don’t know. I was severely depressed for few weeks, couldn’t do anything but laying on bed. Today I feel nothing. No depression. No happiness either. I feel calm because nothing seems to be important anymore.

Possible trigger:

Not even my life. Or how devastated the people who love me will feel if I die

I don’t feel like talking to anyone. Or trying to get help, why bother trying to get it when I know there’s no help for me. No hope. Nothing.

Possible trigger:

And there’s only one way out

I don’t know what I’m saying or the purpose of this thread. I’m sorry I’m wasting your time. Just feel like writing this. Hope everyone has a good day.

I think that it's good that you are getting your thoughts/feelings out into the open here. You are not wasting anyone's time.

[Wild Coyote]

I do understand some of what you are sharing.

Depression is a b**ch!
Depression changes us in ways we do not like. It can crush our self-esteem. our good feelings, our relationships and our will to heal and to live. Depression distorts and lies.

Have you been depressed for a long time?
What types of interventions/treatments have you tried?
Has anything helped?
Do you live alone?

I hope something has shifted for you, even a little bit, since you've written your post ... and you can see a glimmer of hope. I've been dealing with depression for over 30 years now and have survived it, thus far, by taking things a moment at a time. It has been very difficult, for sure. I have been on the edge a lot.

It takes a lot of courage to face each day/night when so depressed. Give yourself lots of credit!

I am glad you wrote here. I'd needed to hear I'm not alone in this war on depression. Although, I am sorry you also suffer.

Please take exceptional care during the most trying times.


WC