[mulan]

I don't feel right. It's a tingling anxious feeling, almost like I felt sick or feverish...inconsistent emotions as I was very excited about something but at same time in control of myself...on the verge of laughing or starting to cry.
It's anxiety but it's not fear, but it has light head, dissociation and some hot sensation (not sweating nor hot flashes).

I had an emotional demanding situation just this evening, I guess this is my response. In the past I would consider myself detached, inappropriate and defective because of brain malfunction and coldness, now I am realizing this might not mean that, but might just be a unadjusted emotional response.

I didn't want to bring here my introspections, well it just happened... Writing helps me clear my thoughts. I have never thought about this quite this way... And it may not be totally that.

I feel stupid for posting this here. But that's because I feel this way that I should post it.

[Fuzzybear]