[bubbles00]

Edit: Screwed up with the title. I meant *Is it normal to think you're going to inevitably die by suicide?

Because I don't see myself growing old or anything. I feel like suicide is how I'm going to pass. One day or another but that's how it's going to end for me.

Is that normal?

[muffin_stomper]

I think about this too sometimes. It's an anxiety... like a voice in the back of my head is telling me that it's going to happen.

I think it's a normal fear, especially for us that have gone through depression and/or trauma.

The thing that keeps me going, though, is that there is always hope. There are so many stories out there about people who got through it, who turned things around, who fought and were able to prevail. Why can't we be like those people? There is nothing that makes us different. We all share the same DNA, and we all have a chance.

[whisperingskye]

I dunno if it’s normal but yeah, that’s what I assume tbh. I’ve spent so much of at least the last ten years suicidal it’s hard to think of myself living a long fulfilling life.

[Carmina]

This is where I live

I think that too. I worry I’m going to get worse and end up like my mom.

It’s how my mom went.

I don't think it's normal for the average person. For someone who suffers with a mental illness though, I bet it happens a lot.

I have said this many times about myself. I have struggled with the thoughts off and on for over 20 years. I accept it as a probability, but hope for the best if that makes sense.

[Wild Coyote]

Like others have expressed, I feel it's "normal" under certain circumstances.

I wonder about myself. I'd lost my dad this way.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

I don't think it's normal for the average person. For someone who suffers with a mental illness though, I bet it happens a lot.

I have said this many times about myself. I have struggled with the thoughts off and on for over 20 years. I accept it as a probability, but hope for the best if that makes sense.

Makes sense to me.

WC

It's actually pretty surprising that it crosses most people minds.

I guess by definition, Normal is what we understand.

[FallDuskTrain]

I am not certain if it is normal or not however normal is overrated and really who cares about being normal? Does it even exist?
With that being said, yes I do think that it is a possibility. Like many others living with MI, I have had intense suffering and if it keeps on repeating itself, I cannot see myself surviving it. However, of course this is the worst case scenario. But yes I have thought about that possibility due to the intense suffering with no break to enjoy life. Besides, I have nobody so I really would not be hurting anyone.
I sincerely hope that I will start enjoying life and that I will, one day, not feel or think the possibility of implementing this worst case scenario in practice.

[MickeyCheeky]

It happens if you're depressed... I'm sorry

[Patagonia]

I agree that normal is way overrated.
I don’t agree that we all have the same dna, that does not make sense to me.

Definitely yes to your question. Just a matter of time. More reality based in my camp.

[IrisBloom]

As others have said, it is normal for people suffering, not just MI but other illnesses too. Not so normal for "normals".

I have had sui thoughts since my late 20s and now going on 60, still feel the same but I keep going and I have learned that not wanting to continue living does not necessarily mean you want to die. For me it's an escape hatch in case the going gets too rough, always in the back of my mind. But I have survived many things I never would have thought I could, health issues and other life issues. On the one hand I am proud of my accomplishments. On the other, I don't know if I can deal if anything major comes up. I think the will to survive is there inside us no matter how we feel, but sometimes people do give up and do the deed.

All I can say is you never know what tomorrow will bring so it is worth sticking around.

I felt like that back in 2012 so I think it's likely that everyone thinks about it at some point

[introspectiveme]

I don’t think it’s normal but I always wonder if I’ll end up like that

Maybe not normal but that’s how I think I’ll go too.

[Shazerac]

I frequently go through episodes where I question whether or not life is worth living. I don’t think I’ll end my own life though. I kind of curious how my life plays out. Maybe that curiosity will save me.