[yogurtssss]

I accepted I will never get better. I will always be the same.

The only way to get out of this is to die.

What am I supposed to do with all my mistakes. I rather die.

I know it sounds crazy to some.

But you don't know what I did .. who I am

Maybe it's best you don't

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by yogurtssss

I accepted I will never get better. I will always be the same.

The only way to get out of this is to die.

What am I supposed to do with all my mistakes. I rather die.

I know it sounds crazy to some.

But you don't know what I did .. who I am

Maybe it's best you don't

It's true that I don't know who you are or what you did . But I know what it feels like to only remember the bad stuff . I seem to only remember all the mistakes I've ever made and bad things that other people have done to me. I try to remember things I've done good and I know there are plenty but those memories never stick out or repeat themselves over and over in my head like all the negative things do.
If you try very hard could you thing of some good things that you've done ? It may take a while to think of them if your thoughts are focused strongly on what you think you did wrong . But when you do think of something maybe you could write it down . Then maybe tomorrow you could think of another thing you did good and keep going making a list. Maybe whenever you are feeling bad about what you did you could read the list out to yourself .
There are many times that I think I am bad . It is usually when I remember something , a mistake I made. But I try to tell myself that a truly bad person does not feel guilty or regret mistakes they made. So if we feel bad about it and dislike ourself for it then maybe we are not bad but we are human .

[yogurtssss]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

It's true that I don't know who you are or what you did . But I know what it feels like to only remember the bad stuff . I seem to only remember all the mistakes I've ever made and bad things that other people have done to me. I try to remember things I've done good and I know there are plenty but those memories never stick out or repeat themselves over and over in my head like all the negative things do.
If you try very hard could you thing of some good things that you've done ? It may take a while to think of them if your thoughts are focused strongly on what you think you did wrong . But when you do think of something maybe you could write it down . Then maybe tomorrow you could think of another thing you did good and keep going making a list. Maybe whenever you are feeling bad about what you did you could read the list out to yourself .
There are many times that I think I am bad . It is usually when I remember something , a mistake I made. But I try to tell myself that a truly bad person does not feel guilty or regret mistakes they made. So if we feel bad about it and dislike ourself for it then maybe we are not bad but we are human .

I don't do much good things.

The negative things that I done are much greater than the positive things to me.

I do have good memories and people I love but in my mind I think i don't deserve it because of who I am.

So even if I try to be more positive it's useless. My past can't be redone and I can't accept it because it's too bad.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by yogurtssss

I don't do much good things.

The negative things that I done are much greater than the positive things to me.

I do have good memories and people I love but in my mind I think i don't deserve it because of who I am.

So even if I try to be more positive it's useless. My past can't be redone and I can't accept it because it's too bad.

I wish I could give you better advice. I'm depressed too and I don't want to live. I don't want anyone else to feel how I feel. I don't think anyone deserves it even if they think they have been bad more times than good

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

It's true that I don't know who you are or what you did . But I know what it feels like to only remember the bad stuff . I seem to only remember all the mistakes I've ever made and bad things that other people have done to me. I try to remember things I've done good and I know there are plenty but those memories never stick out or repeat themselves over and over in my head like all the negative things do.
If you try very hard could you thing of some good things that you've done ? It may take a while to think of them if your thoughts are focused strongly on what you think you did wrong . But when you do think of something maybe you could write it down . Then maybe tomorrow you could think of another thing you did good and keep going making a list. Maybe whenever you are feeling bad about what you did you could read the list out to yourself .
There are many times that I think I am bad . It is usually when I remember something , a mistake I made. But I try to tell myself that a truly bad person does not feel guilty or regret mistakes they made. So if we feel bad about it and dislike ourself for it then maybe we are not bad but we are human .

[yogurtssss]

er.. .........