[cryingontheinside]

I can't have friends . Even on the internet . I try to make friends and I think they are my friend for a while but then I realise they are not .
I am lonely and I need friends . I want friends . But it seems like I am not good enough .
I have depression and other mental health problems . I think I might come across as needy and too nice and weak and probably pathetic .
There is a game I play online . This is where I meet these people . Then we usually go to another app . It's mostly only guys that want to talk to me . They always want to go to the other app quickly and see what I look like . They will be nice to me for a while then most of them will start asking me for nude pictures . I don't send them . Then they start ignoring me . I'm so alone . I'm currently on a diet and I'm not really happy with my appearance . What's worse is my depression is telling me to lose weight then do what they want and send them what they want . Then they will keep talking to me . I know that is not what I should do but that is what my depression is telling me to do.

I don't know why I'm even writing this and I know you will all be shocked about what I am thinking of doing and that you might judge me or think I am pathetic .

Again I don't know what the point is in sharing this with everyone .

I don't know what feedback I expect to get back from this if any at all . But thanks for reading this anyway . And now you can all know how pathetic I really am .

[whisperingskye]

I don’t judge, nor do I think you are pathetic. Being lonely is not nice, and honestly I don’t blame you for wanting to do anything to keep in touch with people. It’s maybe not the healthiest way though for you, which I think you realise. Perhaps when you start talking to these people on the game you should stick with that for longer and if you do move over to the other app be wary of sending pictures. Especially nudes. The longer you talk to people it will hopefully become easier to see who can be trusted and is genuine and who isn’t.

I’m sorry you are feeling so lonely and depressed right now. I hope things get better for you

[BeautifulDiaster23]

well let me just say this , YOU ARE NOT ALONE ! I am 26 years old and I have been that Girl, wanting friends and taking attention from anyone who will give it, until I learn what they really want. I promise yu, no man just wants to be your friend and I have learned that the hard way. I use to have sex, send pictures and basically anything a guy wanted because I thought they cared or loved me and it always back fired on me. Don't settle for less than what yu deserve. Everyone is beautiful in there own way and you don't need some guy or girl to tell yu that yu are. I struggle with my apperence myself. I stopped eating and lost so much weight it is sickening. Don't mess with your food intake unless its an unhealthy habit , but just eat healthier. I am so sorry that yu feel alone but yu are not. I am struggling with the same myself. I have no friends. I'm a stay at home mom with 3 kids. Only person I speak to is my husband and my father. I am here if yu need to vent or talk, I'll offer the best advice I can give from my experience.

[cryingontheinside]

Thank you whispering sky and beautiful disaster . I was really not expecting such kind words and non judgement. I'm now glad that I shared this .