[pixiedust72]

From scheduling appointments for therapy, to not taking time for myself I know I need, to trying to decide if I'm "bad" enough to call or text a crisis line or post on here there are so many times it's a fight to get help for myself. I wish I could objectively look at my life and decide whether or not things were as bad as they seem. It's just hard for me to get to a place where I willingly get help for myself. Maybe it's attached to self worth and not feeling like I deserve the help or feeling like others deserve help more. People think getting help is easy but it's so hard and even when you get it, it doesn't always work.

(I'm saying this for myself. I'm not encouraging others not to get help.)

[empty soul]

I share your dilemma.

I have not been willing to schedule appointments for therapy recently, even after my doctor encouraged me to. I haven’t wanted to spend the time or money. I’ve questioned this decision at times and I have mixed feelings. I just don’t care to spend money and time talking about a bunch of stuff with someone I don’t know who doesn’t know me or truly care. I’ve worked in health care too long... I’m a bit jaded as far as trusting caregivers in any form. So I get what you’re saying. Getting “help” can be complicated.

[pixiedust72]

Originally Posted by Sisabel

I have not been willing to schedule appointments for therapy recently, even after my doctor encouraged me to. I haven’t wanted to spend the time or money. I’ve questioned this decision at times and I have mixed feelings. I just don’t care to spend money and time talking about a bunch of stuff with someone I don’t know who doesn’t know me or truly care. I’ve worked in health care too long... I’m a bit jaded as far as trusting caregivers in any form. So I get what you’re saying. Getting “help” can be complicated.

It's true. A lot of therapists don't care and it's just a job to them. I have a good therapist and I really wish I had started seeing her sooner. Now, there's so much to talk about that even after four weeks, things aren't really getting better for me. So I would encourage you to start going now rather than wait.

[besmith818]

Originally Posted by pixiedust72

From scheduling appointments for therapy, to not taking time for myself I know I need, to trying to decide if I'm "bad" enough to call or text a crisis line or post on here there are so many times it's a fight to get help for myself. I wish I could objectively look at my life and decide whether or not things were as bad as they seem. It's just hard for me to get to a place where I willingly get help for myself. Maybe it's attached to self worth and not feeling like I deserve the help or feeling like others deserve help more. People think getting help is easy but it's so hard and even when you get it, it doesn't always work.

(I'm saying this for myself. I'm not encouraging others not to get help.)

I can relate. Much of the time I wonder if it's worth it for everyone else for me to get help. I also seem to wait too long to initiate appointments while my depression gets worse. I am waiting for my first appointment I could get this time. Not until the 24th.