I sit in frozen position longing for your embrace
all I get is the tormenting feeling of my own disgrace
no more mask with a faked laughter
I don't even know what it is I'm after
a day without agony and confusion
a morning of shouting out a love resolution
tired of fighting to continue creating this B movie
as I not at all in any way - feel groovy
today I cannot look into your eyes
not even answer to your questions as my thoughts flies
away out through the window glass
to fade away like the sun burnt grass
let go of me - because can't you see?!
my being is destructive- so leave me be!

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry Nina! I don't think you're destructive.... things will improve, sorry you're in so much pain (I relate to the B movie bit, someone, perhaps somewhat correctly, said that my childhood was like a B movie..... sigh ) But we can create our own futures, better futures!

....... Maybe I should just keep on wearing that smiling mask...

the thing is... I can't anymore...

well well....

My words seem to be pretty invisible... as I go down under...

Fuzzy... thank you so much for caring! (((((((( Fuzzy ))))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

I'm feeling the same today... and feeling like deleting ( ...)

I care, please know many others do too (((((((((((( Nina ))))))))))))


For any who don't... maybe it's their problem!

((((((Nina))))))

I care sweetie, so much, we have been making plans for our visit.
well, Tony has lol, I have been wallowing in self pity for a few days, but I'm on the up again hopefully, thanks to t.

hang in there, you are too precious to be thinking negative things, speak later, Kerry xxxx

[sickntired]

((((((((((((((( nina )))))))))))))) the cloud will lift.YOU are loved by many.

Kerry... I love you so my sis! Thank you for calling! You and Tony coming to visit... is the thing I have to hold on to.

Sickntired... my friend from the other side of the globe... thank you for caring... even though I know you're not feeling good yourself.

varsagod Nina

hee hee love ya, Kerry xxxxxxxxxxxx