[Deilla]

Tired of feeling lonely. No one to talk to. Didn't really hear from anyone on Christmas. Just greetings. No conversations. Everyone was too busy. Tried to talk to someone today but I haven't heard anything. I thought today would be better.

[sky457]

Really difficult dating experience...again. I need to stop......and protect myself again....

Goodnight...

Originally Posted by Deilla

Tired of feeling lonely. No one to talk to. Didn't really hear from anyone on Christmas. Just greetings. No conversations. Everyone was too busy. Tried to talk to someone today but I haven't heard anything. I thought today would be better.

this is sort of how I feel lately too. I felt quite lonely and abandoned over christmas- and when I have seen people it's either been about them, or it's been just a simple merry christmas

what's annoyed me recently (and it annoys me more and more every day) is that when people see me and talk to me, it's never about my feelings- and never about how I truly feel. it's always about other stuff

today I felt quite patronized- because I told someone that I didn't get a lot for christmas, and she replied

" well, santa has a lot of people to see. he's a very busy man."

... how old am I again?. 4?

it would just be nicer if people started to talk to me about things on a mature level and understand that I too, have emotions

today feels so normal, and not in a good way, either.

just the stretch of normalness between christmas and new year.... I don't know why I hate it so much (even though it feels just as bad as any other day of the year, these 4 days are the worst)
in my case it's thinking about how bad christmas was, and how depressed I am for the new year

hate these few days

wrote my shopping list for next week and my weekly menu
that is all i'm doing today

[sarahsweets]

Hey all above me... I am really sorry you feel that way. its a sh*tty feeling. Especially that Santa comment... seriously? F you. How about empathy you as*hole?

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

Hey all above me... I am really sorry you feel that way. its a sh*tty feeling. Especially that Santa comment... seriously? F you. How about empathy you as*hole?

thank you hun for the post.

how are you doing today?

hope you're okay

[Mountaindewed]

It’s no different then the past 9 years. The SAD always seems to get terrible on the 27th-28th of December. With the end of Christmas. My family has gone back home. I go back to work tomorrow. The weather sucks. I’m hanging in there. I’m going to start weightlifting and exercising.

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

It’s no different then the past 9 years. The SAD always seems to get terrible on the 27th-28th of December. With the end of Christmas. My family has gone back home. I go back to work tomorrow. The weather sucks. I’m hanging in there. I’m going to start weightlifting and exercising.

I hate the space between christmas and new year (27th, 28th, 29th,)

somehow it feels like normal, regular depression, but worse

I don't know

I feel so "average"

in a bad way

what a boring, regular, no good start to friday. it may as well be sunday

[Turtle_Rider]

I feel so low and worn out.

In these past three years, New Year has come with bad news and awful experiences. I admit this year isn't as awful as last year though.

Lately I feel so disconnected with everyone I know, in both real life and online even in PC. I admit it's because my lack of social interest.

I'm tired of faking smiles and attitude. I want to open my mask, but unfortunately I have to keep it for another year or maybe forever.

[will19]

I felt very tired this morning and didn't feel like going to work. For some strange reason it seems like the sun is rising later in the mornings. I thought it would rise earlier now that it's beyond the shortest days.

For me I don't like that period between Christmas & New Years either because it feels like the summer ilks make a comeback at where I live. It gets noisy outside and bad people come to the pool area. But so far not much of it probably because it's cold outside. If only it was warm it would be bad at where I live now. Also I'm weighing heavy about the possibility of moving from my place in about a couple of months from now.

In the last couple of days at work, it had been very busy in the mornings much to my surprise. I thought it was going to be nice and easy.

[Mountaindewed]

Work sucked. I didn’t get yelled at by anyone though. My managers were fine. My coworkers were fine. The customers didn’t ask me anything. So nothing went wrong. I’m guessing it’s just my depression again. I’m hanging in there though.

[will19]

It was very slow at work for most of the day. However, at the 11 AM hour, there was a lot going on. One of the security guards called me and said that there was a big truck delivering. I was like, "oh no"! because of running out of space to put things. So a pallet of boxes came and I broke it down. While I was doing that, the guard called me again saying that there was another big truck coming. I just lost it emotionally, but I felt bad that I lost it with the guard. I was overwhelmed.

After work, I felt very depressed and alone. I worked out and felt better, even though I had a bum leg. Had a fairly nice dinner and the pool area was nice. Very cold outside, but it seemed right for me.

[Rose76]

Woke up at 2 a.m. after sleeping only 2 hours. Still awake. Crying.

managed to get shopping yesterday (and a lot more besides)

mostly a good trip so that's good

no sleep last night so blah

I'm not doing anything today but I'm feeling okay

it's amazing how idiots think I'm going to be doing good when they have taken everything from my life and left me with virtually nothing. IDK, how would THEY feel??? Funny, they never ask themselves that.

[will19]

In the middle of doing my usual Saturday housework. I'm having coffee right now for a break. Feeling depressed this morning. I may feel worse later on today when all of my activities are over. Very cold outside, but not that bad. Very dry also. For some strange reason I tend to get depressed on sunny cold days. Not as much when it's cloudy.

Last night, when talking to my friend, he mentioned that he needed a clock radio. I told him I had some extra ones I don't use. He messaged me this morning saying that he wanted to check out what I have. Which might have meant that he would come over here. But it would be with his wife, I guess. Before I replied back to him, I checked around and then I didn't have an extra clock radio at all. So I wrote back to tell him that. I don't think he's disappointed because he and wife can look for one.

[Rose76]

Well, over the course of Saturday, I improved a lot.

This morning my bf heard me explain to his adult daughter that I can't take his being so snippy, critical and irritable with me so much of the time. I told her I might have to put him in a nursing home for a few weeks to give me a break. I asked her to call him and tell him that this is a real possibility and that he'ld be wise to start acting nicer.

She never did get to calling him, yet, but me talking to her made an impression on him. I don't complain about him to his kids, unless I'm absolutely at my wit's end. It's been a few years since I last called them about him being miserable to me. So he actually did get on his best behavior all day to day.

Well, I'm amazed at how my morale improved, as the day wore on. I guess he actually does know what behavior and type of comments of his get me crazy, and he put a check on that stuff. He actually does know how to be nice and was able to keep it up for the whole day. This really has opened my eyes.

I see now that I am very affected by the tone he takes. Being talked to in a crabby way repeatedly gets me very depressed. I get so demoralized by being snarled at. Then I snarl back. Then we each raise our voices trying to out-do each other. Then I become a wreck. And it's not evenly both our faults. I can be trying so hard, and he'll say something snippy that is uncalled for. Then I get so awfully discouraged.

This morning started rough, but he improved after he heard me tell his daughter I can't take how he's treating me. The big question is whether he will backslide tomorrow.

I thanked him tonight and asked him to think about how nice our day went, once he changed his tune.

Somehow I've got to be serious about not accepting a return to the sniping. I see now how badly affected I am by it and how greatly I improve when he turns that stuff off.

[Deilla]

Having a productive day. It feels nice to get something done. Will try to relax too.

[LifelongLoner]

Did I get a flu shot? Yes. Did I still get the flu? Yes. That's 2 years in a row now. They say that is in such cases, you will not get it as bad and that appears to be true as it seems to be mostly over by the third day. But the 2 days that I had it were awful. And I seem to have pulled a chest (diaphragm) muscle from all the coughing and hiccups. My stomach is still not settled but at least I can taste food again and have resumed eating. Should I go to work tomorrow or should I take a sick day to make sure I get over it?