[cryingontheinside]

I should be in hospital but it's very hard in this country to be in-patient.
If I told them the truth about the thoughts that I get then they probably would put me there but I would be labelled as a bad person. It's not my fault I get those thoughts , they come from nowhere . I am not a bad person and I'm not going to talk about the thoughts .

I'm not coping . I'm not looking after myself . I can't even get my medication and nobody will help me. This happens so often that there is no point even being given meds because it won't work if it's not consistent .
I can barely function .
Nobody is helping me .
I just want to die .

[Fuzzybear]

I agree... in theory a hospital could help, but whether that is a possibility here is another matter

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I agree... in theory a hospital could help, but whether that is a possibility here is another matter

I'm also scared to go to hospital . It's not a good experience . Im a hopeless case . Nobody can help me but they worse part is that nobody tries to help me. I just wish I would die .

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I'm also scared to go to hospital . It's not a good experience . Im a hopeless case . Nobody can help me but they worse part is that nobody tries to help me. I just wish I would die .

I’m very scared of hospitals too

I’m sorry they don’t try to help you.

I think, maybe, this country has the poorest “care” for MI almost anywhere

[MatBell]

I’m sorry to hear how you are. I can relate to it all. I’ve had a terrible day too and just want to disappear or go inpatient.

Is there a reason why you can’t get your meds?

I understand crying, sadly nobody in this country tries to help when someone's got a mental health issue

[cryingontheinside]

I'm sad that so many of us feel like this . It's not right .

[Fuzzybear]

PS I think I may have mentioned this before but I’m not sure,,

There are inpatient facilities which are supposed to help “severe personality disorders” - the “rationale” from their perspective is... as usual... to “save money”

I used to know someone irl who’s shrink tried to get her to go to one of those hospitals.. but she was branded “a difficult patient” etc etc etc .. by him and others.. she “took up too much time” ... she didn’t want to go anyway... he kept seeing her,, he retired early
(She was branded “manipulative” etc etc)

But they apparently have “good results” for people who have been branded “hopeless cases”

The standard n.s. Hospitals, from what little I know.. are Hopeless Cases for almost everyone with MI

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

PS I think I may have mentioned this before but I’m not sure,,

There are inpatient facilities which are supposed to help “severe personality disorders” - the “rationale” from their perspective is... as usual... to “save money”

I used to know someone irl who’s shrink tried to get her to go to one of those hospitals.. but she was branded “a difficult patient” etc etc etc .. by him and others.. she “took up too much time” ... she didn’t want to go anyway... he kept seeing her,, he retired early
(She was branded “manipulative” etc etc)

But they apparently have “good results” for people who have been branded “hopeless cases”

The standard n.s. Hospitals, from what little I know.. are Hopeless Cases for almost everyone with MI

I've never heard of these hospitals . Not sure if I like the sound of it though . Everything scares me .

[MatBell]

Are you in contact with a therapist or doctor? If so are you going to see them soon?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I've never heard of these hospitals . Not sure if I like the sound of it though . Everything scares me .

I know what you mean.. they could be helpful or they could be very harmful I’m guessing..depending on the Quality of the Professionals

That .. therapist.. said “what aren’t you scared of” or something similar.

What an idiot

Actually I was quite high functioning back then

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I know what you mean.. they could be helpful or they could be very harmful I’m guessing..depending on the Quality of the Professionals

That .. therapist.. said “what aren’t you scared of” or something similar.

What an idiot

Actually I was quite high functioning back then

When I was an inpatient once the pdoc told me I was lying that I tried in the past to commit suicide with paracetamol . He said I would be dead and that I was a liar . A few months later I took an overdose again of paracetamol and got my stomach pumped and was in his hospital again. He never called me a liar again after that though .

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I’m sorry to hear how you are. I can relate to it all. I’ve had a terrible day too and just want to disappear or go inpatient.

Is there a reason why you can’t get your meds?

I know nobody cares about this.... but for me, yes. I’m allergic to the meds,

Because of this I’m a “hopeless case”

But I’ve been told I do NOT MATTER

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Are you in contact with a therapist or doctor? If so are you going to see them soon?

I don't have a therapist . I'm too unwell to leave my house to get medication . This happens all the time and nobody will help me

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

When I was an inpatient once the pdoc told me I was lying that I tried in the past to commit suicide with paracetamol . He said I would be dead and that I was a liar . A few months later I took an overdose again of paracetamol and got my stomach pumped and was in his hospital again. He never called me a liar again after that though .

I’m sorry

I was told that the care in the USA is “every bit as bad”

I dont know why people feel the need to educate me.. do I have too much fur or something

I haven’t been accused by the “professionals” of lying. What is WRONG with these “professionals”

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I know nobody cares about this.... but for me, yes. I’m allergic to the meds,

Because of this I’m a “hopeless case”

But I’ve been told I do NOT MATTER

I'm sorry you are allergic to meds . We do care. I'm sorry for all the negative experiences you had with the professionals

[Fuzzybear]

((((( hugs )))))) have you ever tried insisting on seeing a therapist. A lot of “research” points to the effectiveness of long term therapy for BPD.. I think it’s the official line of the n.s. As well

But probably the reality is different from the official line, they prefer to tell people there is “no help” and they give any reason, usually a blaming reason

[Fuzzybear]

PS I don’t think they would label you as a “bad person” but I could be wrong

They would label you as “not coping” - but they are supposed to help people to “cope”

[cryingontheinside]

I'm trying to get therapy . I don't know if it will help though but worth a try

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

((((( hugs )))))) have you ever tried insisting on seeing a therapist. A lot of “research” points to the effectiveness of long term therapy for BPD.. I think it’s the official line of the n.s. As well

But probably the reality is different from the official line, they prefer to tell people there is “no help” and they give any reason, usually a blaming reason

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I'm trying to get therapy . I don't know if it will help though but worth a try

That’s good.. it’s definitely worth a try