[cklasik]

Hi

I would like to share what has just happened to me.

Overall, I am in a rather traumatic phase: struggling with employment, lost a partner, no perspectives for improvement.
And this is how I feel usually. I have developed ways to cope with that so that I remember not to make things worse, although it is not always clear what's right.

After another day at work full of especially traumatic events, I was spending the evening lying on the couch with no clear idea how to get better.
Then all of a sudden something changed completely in my mood. For just a blink of an eye, I felt completely free from any worry. The experience was so vivid that I asked myself a basic question: so, am I or am I not deeply concerned about what has happened? - and did not know the answer.

This was actually quite unsettling to start doubting one's state, backed by so much evidence.
I am not sure how much later, all my sorrows disappeared - this time for longer.

What still puzzles me is that momentary flip. How could this happen? I am trying to draw some useful conclusions: what if I am not really worried that much at all?

I wonder if this makes sense

[ShadowGX]

Sounds like something you need to meditate on for sure. I've never experienced such a thing myself, so I'm afraid I can't provide any more insight than that.