I could be with Ebony again

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for the record I am not suicidal

I just miss her still, and I'm guilt tripping myself again about getting a friend for Tigger even though I know Tigger needs a new friend

I am in love with a new cat though, arranging to go meet her next weekend (this means I'm going to meet her next weekend if I can)

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idk if this is survivors guilt or what, I should be the one who died, not my darling girl Ebony, never Ebony, she deserved more years of love and care, not to get snatched away by cancer just as she was feeling safe enough to fully relax around most people

edited to add a quote from lord of the rings:

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some that live deserve death, some that die deserve life

Ebony deserved life and that life was snatched away Why couldn't scumbag here of been took instead? Why was Ebony took like that?

I miss you still, sweetpea

I will forever love you

[Fuzzybear]

[mote.of.soul]

I'm so sorry about Ebony, whispershadow, so sad, but I'm glad you have your Tigger and going to see a new cat soon, for you both. It will be happy times. Happy family!

((((whispershadow & Tigger & new cat! ))))