[Chez3]

I've decided that I don't like thinking. Any time I do it, I start thinking about sad things that make everything seem empty. I've decided that I don't like feeling. Any time I do it, I just hurt. I've decided that I don't like existing. Any time I do, I think and feel. Nevertheless, I have to do these things. I have to think, though I might not like the thoughts. I have to feel, though I might not like the feelings. I have to exist, because I've decided that suicide would only put my pain on everyone close to me, and I don't like that thought, feeling, or potential reality. Right now, I'm stuck in a place where I sort-of feel, and sort-of think and sort-of exist. I hope that I don't lose my ability to do such things. That would hurt. But I also don't want to fully realize these things. That would hurt. I'm in an odd middle ground that's kind of stable, where I kind of hurt all nof the time, but it's not horrible, and I can survive for now.

[MickeyCheeky]

Thoughts and feelings can hurt... but they can also be wonderful.

Best wishes to you for getting better. I hope you find a happier place for yourself. ❤️

[Sunflower123]

I hope you feel better soon.

Best wishes to you, Chez

[Fuzzybear]

[SlumberKitty]

I hope you feel better soon...(((hugs)))