I can't think of many words to describe what I want to describe. I can't use the word slump. I feel like that would insinuate that my mood is lower than usual, and that I'll be able to pull myself out of it relatively quickly simply from sheer will power. Except I'm been dealing with this for 15 years, with occasional bouts of being OK. This interferes with getting things done. And it feels like it will always be this way. I'm not just stuck in this pit, I'm chained down and the door is bolted shut. I kinda think that in the very least if I was able to be productive somehow that I could deal. I'm terrible at dealing though. I'm really behind on several things I promised others I'd do and they're not getting done any time soon.
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Because in truth, I am that monster.
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