[MotherMidnight]

So, a little backstory to provide some context, I was taken to a therapist once because my mom caught me with fresh wounds and I couldn't talk my way out of it. I wasn't very comfortable with my therapist & I didn't continue my appointment. He hadn't diagnosed me with anything but I guess he gave me some anxiety pills. Some months after that I decided to just end it all but failed, my friend woke me up the next day, and I guess he didn't suspect a thing.


Until this day I've never told anyone that I attempted suicide that night. I'm not even entirely sure I should talk about it, but I don't want to constantly lying about how I feel & it's becoming a burden that it affects my relationship with everyone I care about. I want to be able to talk about my problems in civilized manner & build a healthy relationship where I can be honest. At the other hand I'm afraid that it creates space between us, either they try to have as little to do with me as possible or feeling guilt ridden after they know.


I know there's no definite answer to this but I'm curious how you decide to open up about this particular topic & how it makes you feel. Sorry if I wasn't too specific, but if you have any question just ask away, I don't mind.


Thank you all for being here.

[childofchaos831]

My attempts were usually followed by the psych hospital. I have had a couple that my family don't know about, but I have told my friends and treatment team. I don't know how I would tell my family, honestly.

I think I told my friends because they feel safe whereas my family doesn't. If you do tell someone, start with someone that feels safe. Someone that you think would react well, even if they aren't one of the closest people to you...

[MotherMidnight]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

My attempts were usually followed by the psych hospital. I have had a couple that my family don't know about, but I have told my friends and treatment team. I don't know how I would tell my family, honestly.

I think I told my friends because they feel safe whereas my family doesn't. If you do tell someone, start with someone that feels safe. Someone that you think would react well, even if they aren't one of the closest people to you...

Thanks for sharing, I've been considering this as well because there are people who surprisingly more aware of this topic & even politely step forward to listen even though we don't know each other well enough.

for the most part, I've not had to bring it up

for the most part, it comes up in conversation

person I'm speaking too: I know you're depressed, but you really don't want to end up doing the unthinkable, their's no going back from that

me: you mean ending my life?

them: yeah

me: I've actually tried to end it before

(that sort of thing)

as for reactions, I usually don't get any either way

I don't get oh, that's ashame, what made you want to try

but also (whhich is a good thing), I don't get hatred for it and people saying that

Possible trigger:

I should have done it

I have only had that comment twice, once from my mother and once from a former therapist (who I obviously don't see anymore)

[MtnTime2896]

Much like raging vortex, it's mostly come up in conversation for me. Except once and that once was with my best friend roughly fourteen hours after I was supposed to be gone.

It's a hard thing to talk about, so take it easy and let yourself be as calm as possible before you open up like that. How I looked at it, I just brought it up like I was telling a story about grocery shopping. I don't know why but it helped.

[Fuzzybear]

Since I have an absolute horror of hospitals.. I don’t have much to share here

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm afraid there isn't an easy way to put it. It's a tough subject. Just do it when you feel comfortable enough and be honest. I'm sorry

[MotherMidnight]

People don't talk about this particular topic casually from where I live especially that I always put up positive attitude towards them. It'll likely never come up in a conversation for me as they've never known me for being depressed whatsoever. These friends who are openly talking about their struggle, people always label them as being whiny or attention seeker. That's why I keep this to myself. I guess I'll just wait for the right time & right people to tell as what @childofchaos831 had said. At least the possibilities of being judged is lower that way.