[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Ok, so .. I don't come here often anymore because the truth is - generally, I am not super depressed, anxious, or bothered by my other disorders anymore. I have learned how to control them - on my own, in natural ways. Yes, I do still have times it crops up .. I think that will always be true, no matter what a person uses to "cure" themselves. The difference is with natural things, you can always get it (or do it) when necessary (usually) ... unless you are in my position and cannot afford to get them and have run out at the time you need them.

So ... right now, I am feeling like I am

Possible trigger:

wishing for death .. yet not planning it.

I cannot afford a doctor right now either, which also of course means I cannot afford a hospital because they set you up with a doctor upon discharge and I don't qualify for assistance either.

I am going through a lot of stress at the moment so I know that's the reason. I just don't know what to do about it.

My neighbor is accusing me of turning off the light switches in the hallway and outside, causing people to fall down the stairs .. saying she knows none of the other neighbors are doing it - yet saying she is not accusing me of it. How do you not accuse someone if you only leave one possibility as the one doing it? I went to the doctor and found out my sciatic nerve is messing up. I went to my neurologist and found out my EEG is abnormal. My husband is upset with me because I brought up the past. And that's just the last two days. I have been having stress for a week or two now. I cannot take it and am falling apart again.

Any suggestions?