[DP_2017]

I've always felt like the universe hates me, things never go well for me. 2018 ended terribly with my T leaving right before Christmas... so I tried to put things out there to focus on going into the new year. All of them have already backfired
and now Im dealing with medical issues again.

My dog is 15 and I know he wont be around a ton longer but he's the only reason I'm still here. I wish I could find more reasons to go on. Nothing seems worth it

[mote.of.soul]

If anything happens to your dog, DP_2017, there might be another puppy waiting in the shelter for a caring home to go to. And s/he will be a lucky pup. You'll get through these tough times friend. We're all in the same boat together. (((Hug)))

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by DP_2017

I've always felt like the universe hates me, things never go well for me. 2018 ended terribly with my T leaving right before Christmas... so I tried to put things out there to focus on going into the new year. All of them have already backfired
and now Im dealing with medical issues again.

My dog is 15 and I know he wont be around a ton longer but he's the only reason I'm still here. I wish I could find more reasons to go on. Nothing seems worth it

Suggestion: find another puppy now. Not full grown, but puppy. A puppy will liven your older dog up plus it is easier accepted by older dogs than a full grown one. Then when your older one does pass, you already have a connection with the new one - and memories attached of the older one playing with the younger one too, so it is not truly like having lost the older one completely. I know from having gone through that experience. ❤

[DP_2017]

No. I don't have any patience for a puppy.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Ok, was just a thought.

[pixielouwho]

I’m not fed up with all life, just my current life. I want my pre-physical and mental illness life of 3 years ago back. That or someone else’s life, someone who is happy and healthy.

[pixielouwho]

Originally Posted by DP_2017

I've always felt like the universe hates me, things never go well for me. 2018 ended terribly with my T leaving right before Christmas... so I tried to put things out there to focus on going into the new year. All of them have already backfired
and now Im dealing with medical issues again.

My dog is 15 and I know he wont be around a ton longer but he's the only reason I'm still here. I wish I could find more reasons to go on. Nothing seems worth it

I get it. Wanting to outlive my chronically ill cats kept me going a long time. Now they are gone, and I sometimes wonder what else there is to stick around for.

Pix

DP I don't hate you You are a wonderful person

Maybe an adult dog that would get on well with your older dog?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, DP_2017 Please don't give up. I know things seem pretty bad right now, but they can get better. You don't have to stay like this forever. I agree about getting a new dog, maybe that could ease the pain a little bit? I certainly hope so. Maybe you can try to find some new hobbies. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, but remember that the year has just started. Things can get better down the line. Keep writing here if it helps. Feel free to PM me anytime. Sending many hugs to you

[sarahsweets]

I see that things may suck for you but if you just hang on I promise you its not forever. Feelings are not facts and while crappy feelings hurt, feelings do not always match up with reality.

Originally Posted by DP_2017

My dog is 15 and I know he wont be around a ton longer but he's the only reason I'm still here. I wish I could find more reasons to go on. Nothing seems worth it

I get it. I have often wondered about life. In fact it seems like one massive sick game. Even freaking year of my life there has been STRUGGLE I had to over come. Every freaking year. And it doesn't seem to be stopping. Even things that were sure bets, such as working for the gov't has turned out to be a struggle. It is all a struggle. I am so tried of the struggle. When will there NOT be struggle?

And what do I have to look forward to? Getting sick, infirm, and likely dying alone in a horrible way.

Sometimes I just want to retire to a small shack in the woods, farm my food and wait to die on the floor of my cabin.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton

I get it. I have often wondered about life. In fact it seems like one massive sick game. Even freaking year of my life there has been STRUGGLE I had to over come. Every freaking year. And it doesn't seem to be stopping. Even things that were sure bets, such as working for the gov't has turned out to be a struggle. It is all a struggle. I am so tried of the struggle. When will there NOT be struggle?

And what do I have to look forward to? Getting sick, infirm, and likely dying alone in a horrible way.

Sometimes I just want to retire to a small shack in the woods, farm my food and wait to die on the floor of my cabin.

I used to feel this way too.

Question: are you still relying on psychiatrists and counselors to "make you better" or have you begun any research and tried implementing anything into your life yet?

[cryingontheinside]

Life ..... It's so hard .. .... So so hard . sad hugs