I don't need others, whoever they may be -- friends, family or romantic partners or strangers -- to make myself happy. I can be happy and content on my own. I don't need any person who I may rely on to make myself happy. I just don't want to live my life for them... they'll never be "always there" for me because frankly nobody has been there for me "always."

Talking about emotions, I won't even have myself for more than a life time. Why am I expecting people to be there for me always? I know they never will. It's something that won't change in my life time.

It hurts. But let that part of me to be wounded forever, ain't nobody is going to heal it. I am not sure I want to be a scientist and heal people. I am not sure I'd want all the college interactions which ultimately lead me to have interactions with people... you win, fate, I cannot change you.

But you know one thing?

**** you, fate.

[Thirty shades]

((((((TheLonelyChemist))))))

Much love, happiness and peace...

[cryingontheinside]

Hugs to you . you're not alone on here

[MickeyCheeky]

Sending many hugs to you, TheLonelyChemist