[cryingontheinside]

I want to die .

[Mopey]

Crying 😢 ((((Many hugs)))) Did something happen, dear?

[cryingontheinside]

Nothing new happened . i just feel like this everyday .

[Mopey]

Are you on medication?

[cryingontheinside]

Yes i am but it doesn't really help . i feel hopeless

[Mopey]

How long have you felt this way? Do you have a therapist? Or would you like to talk to me a little bit? Tell me about yourself?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

How long have you felt this way? Do you have a therapist? Or would you like to talk to me a little bit? Tell me about yourself?

I don't have a therapist yet . i live alone and don't go out because i have agoraphobia . i also have bpd . i have no motivation or energy . i try to stay asleep as much as possible . when im awake i wish i was asleep or dead

[Mopey]

I can relate. I prefer to be in bed and/or asleep myself most of the time. And I'm deeply sorry you are in pain. Sounds like you really need that therapist. If you have bpd, do you cycle back and forth between mania and depression? Anything particularly trigger the cycles?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

I can relate. I prefer to be in bed and/or asleep myself most of the time. And I'm deeply sorry you are in pain. Sounds like you really need that therapist. If you have bpd, do you cycle back and forth between mania and depression? Anything particularly trigger the cycles?

I never feel mania i just usually feel depressed most of the time . im sorry that you are struggling too

[Mopey]

I guess most all of us on this forum are struggling in one way or another, Crying. I'm doing better as of late, but I still love climbing under my bedclothes.

How did you happen to choose Betty Boop as your avatar? I like Betty Boop.

[cryingontheinside]

I don't know i just like her too. Yes so many of us are struggling . i wish there was no pain for anyone

[Mopey]

I wish that too, Crying. I have no idea if there is any reason or purpose for the pain, but it certainly is there whether we like it or not.

Do you have children?

[cryingontheinside]

Yes i have children but they don't live with me . i guess they are the reason im not dead yet

[Mopey]

Do you ever talk to them about the way you've been feeling?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

Do you ever talk to them about the way you've been feeling?

No they shouldn't have to hear that

[Mopey]

May I ask why not? Maybe they could help. Share your burden. You are their mother, after all. You probably shared their burdens when they were young...

Or does the way you feel have to do with them?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

May I ask why not? Maybe they could help. Share your burden. You are their mother, after all. You probably shared their burdens when they were young...


Or does the way you feel have to do with them?

They are only teenagers . i don't want to burden them.

[Mopey]

Oh, I see - teenagers. Young ones. But they don't live with you?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

Oh, I see - teenagers. Young ones. But they don't live with you?

No they don't live with me because of my mental health problems . i miss them

[Mopey]

Are you still able to talk with them, say on the phone? Email them? Text them?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

Are you still able to talk with them, say on the phone? Email them? Text them?

Yes i still speak to them and i see them but not as much as i want to .

[Mopey]

Crying, I'm going to need to sign off in a few minutes but before I have to go, would you like to tell me a little about your children? Their interests? What they're like?

I have been their many times (and I'm currently their now)

I hope you're able to find good distractions and get the support you need.

(and we'll always be here too)