[kebsfroggy]

The pain so unrelenting and excruciating that death itself becomes a positive. As if someone/something has reached inside your gut, grabbed a hold of your heart and soul and started squeezing tighter, ever tighter. Sure your next breath will be your last.

Sometimes the little blue pill the Pdoc prescribes allows you to drift into a fitful sleep full of shadows of emotion. You wake with a start, sobbing loudly, tears streaming down your cheek and the crushing sensation of oppressive sorrow surrounding you.

The first rays of daylight cast an eerie glow to your chamber of horrors. Perhaps today will be different, less pain, a glimpse of release from the days that have come before. But no, even daily routines become agony only performed to retain what little reality is still left.

Always lurking in the shadows, it lays in wait for that one split second of weakness then pounces with a vengeance. An overwhelming sorrow and hopelessness scream their existence. You sit in a busy store parking lot surrounded by hundreds shoppers paralyzed, unable to do anything but sob uncontrollably giving in to a flood of tears.

Why is this happening? What Gods have I royally pissed off? Will this sense of total despair ever let go of my heart? Why do I never get better? Why does even one little baby-step loom as large as the Great Wall of China?

IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS my soul screams. Perhaps death is the only way to find peace, a final release from the pain. No more, no more I beg but no one can hear me for I alone exist in this living hell.

[nowheretorun]

((((((((((((Kebs)))))))))))

i have said hello to the mountains for you.. this morning they reflected a clear rose flatiron to the east ... prairie grasses blew in a gentle and warm breeze... flys and gnats were carried by the wind to patient frogs by the pool...

[kebsfroggy]

Thank you for the illusion
But even frogs of little brain know that is was more like -- overcast skys, rain, ice and snow mixed, winds out of the west @ 40-45 mph......on the coattails of that weather system the roared through Seattle yesterday heading east.

Did you know frogs are among the few who are able to eat what BUGs them? (3rd grade science class)

Thanks again for your kindness

[Cyran0]

I'm so sorry you feel so sad but if it's any comfort, you're my favorite frog ever.

And I love the way you write.

I wish I had some advice but clearly I've been on a sinking lilly pad myself.

Stay cool little froggy.

Cyran0

[jacq10]

(((((((((((((Kebs)))))))))))))
I don't really know what to say that might be able to comfort you right now, but i'm hoping that a hug might help a bit... its the best i can do.

Jacq

[(JD)]

I wonder how so many ppl in the same place can still be alone.

[pegasus]

Big hugs to you my friend, I know a cyber hug probably doesn't help all that much but I'm sending it anyway because I do care and hate to see you in so much pain.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( kebsfroggy ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((keb))))))))))))

(((((((((((cyran)))))))))))

I hope you both feel better today....thinking of you both, Love Jinny xxxxxx

[dragonphoto]

Kebs what you need when the day is overcast and rainy and the winds seem to blow your frog fuzz, is a big hug. Someone to hold on to you and tell you everything is going to be allright, someone big and strong enough to keep the rain off your froggy fuzz and keep the wind from blowing you away. So for you today I am sending you great big Dragon hugs (I promise not to crush you)

[[[[[{{{{{{(((((((Kebs))))))}}}}}}]]]]]]] Hugs don't get much stronger than this. I promise not to let my little frog buddy get blown away from the things that scare her. I am here for you wings and all.

Dragon

[starfishblue]

Hey froggy - I'm kinda new here, but I understand your pain. I have been in that pit of depression. I don't have answers but know I care. I send you my hugs and my prayers. Riding out the storm takes mountains of strength - hold on - you are not alone.
{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[katheryn]

sorry kebs that you are struggling each day, i know you now you are not alone in this struggle each and every day many of struggle with you its a shame we cant all get togeather and kick this gloom into the past

but know we are here with you

((((((((((((((((((((((kebs))))))))))))))))))))))

[kebsfroggy]

Let's face it, I'm probably the only frog you know on a first name basis.

I'm glad you enjoy my writing. As a frog of little brain it is very difficult to remember the words, to know which is the right word to use (there, their) or even how the stupid word once I think of it. Oh well life is suppose to be challenging is it.

Yes I know your lily pad is shakey at best. I would offer you one of mine but with the drought my extras dried up and blew away on the sea breeze weeks ago

To return the compliment I enjoy your posts too. You have succeeded in placing more than one wry smile on this froggy face. I almost popped a curler one time. Thank you.

[kebsfroggy]

Thank you for the Dragon hugs. I'm sure glad you added the "I promise" part.
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The thought of a very big Dragon hug tends to bring flash backs of the many froggy friends lost to road kill. I've also heard from some very reliable sources that frog legs are listed on the menu at some restaurants. Definitely makes a frog of little brain nervous.

Thank you for your care and concern.

[kebsfroggy]

Jacq
Sky
Pegasus
Jinny
Starfish
Katheryn

My heartfelt thanks for your hugs and words of care and concern. They are greatly appreciated.

[Perna]

Sending you my best wishes.

[dragonphoto]

Yes I try to be that gentle dragon much like Pete's Dragon. I am here for you anytime you need a shoulder to perch on.

[kebsfroggy]

hehehe

I've had a few of those days, week, months

Thanks

[therealme]

((((((((((((((((((keb))))))))))))))))))

im so sorry, you are feeling so low....... (and me whining on yahoo probably didnt help you, i wish i had seen this post before we spoke) ...
you are a great friend to me and so many other people here ,,,,,,, i wish we could all come around to your pond and give you a group hug

dec x0x

[dragonphoto]

Group hug on Keb's lily pad...all are invited.

[stefano]

A frog of little brain has a big heart. That is important.

[wickedwings]

((((((kebsfroggy)))))) i know.... you're not alone. you're in great company.

[starfishblue]

Hi Froggy - how are you today? I just want you to know you were one of the posters in the first chat I joined in here at Psych central. You kept posting these froggies with your posts. I was VERY down in the dumps and you gave me a smile. It takes a lot to get me to smile when I am in the pits, but you got me to smile. I know it hurts kebs, believe me I know it. Ride out the storm, froggy! It gets better sooner or later.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( froggy )))))))))))))
So sorry I'm so late with this, it's no excuse but I seem to have been on another planet for the last few days. Maybe I was sent to the mat planet by petunia, I'm sure she's watching over us here

Much love and care,
furry paws


PS I'll try to be a better friend, not that that will necessarily be a positive for you but I'll try to make it so. I wish with all my heart that ugly pain would leave you alone and never return. GGGRRRRR at it

[kebsfroggy]

TRM
dragonphoto
stephano
wickedwings
starfishblue
fuzzy

Thank you all for the group hug, comfort and compassion. Sorry I couldn't get here sooner to thank you all. My computer was hijacked list night. In my house we have to share and work over rides fun and games every time.