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Junior Member
Member Since Jan 2019
Location: Chicago
Posts: 15
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What’s wrong with me I cut al my friends off rightfully so and then I want friends. I’m fine with being alone then I get lonely. I don’t want anyone to be close to me anymore. I wish I cld make an online friend here..: if anyone is up for it. Still I feel so depressed. I isolate myself bc no one gets it! Even my bf is starting to become tired of me. I’m such a fk up. I wish I cld die. I wish I cld be a normal girl who didn’t feel so much depression and have so many episodes. I isolate myself bc no one gets it! And when they do they wanna leave. At first when I say I struggle with mental illnesses they think it’s cute but then when they see I’m really neurotic that’s when ppl wanna leave or I notice they want to and cut them off. My mother grandmother and oldest sister are narcissistic. My mother purposely rips us all apart for her pleasure. It’s soooo much! And none of my friends try to get it bc they have their own ****. That’s why I isolate myself bc they don’t get it. So I feel I’m bette alone. The only time I ever felt understood was at a psychiatric hospital.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Nov 2008
Location: D`Aguilar Queensland Australia
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It is hard at times to know what we want. At the same time cutting friends out we leave a hole and must fill it whether we like it or not. I have been through what you are going through and cut more ppl than I should have but now have less but stronger relationships with the friends I have. I would and have put my life in their hands. God, it was hard but I did it. The family also got cut but what can I say .you find out who your blood truly is I also have messed up and made friends on the inside as well. Having friends that you have shared an experience like that makes them family as well .when I was inside I gained a sister on the outside __________________ |
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Wisest Elder Ever
Member Since Nov 2002
Location: Cave.
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