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Lately, I have become indifferent to life. Of course, I want my life situation to be better but once it gets better, I know that it's only a question of time before it gets worse again and I just tired of this cycle. Me and my wife have had a very busy and stressful last year (my job, my wife's pregnancy, then childbirth, wife's problems with my mon). We finally had some family come over for help and support and though I was happy initially, now that they're about to leave, I wonder the point in getting that relief at all. Because it will be back to square one and there's nothing I have done to fix any of the issues mentioned above. I don't even regret inaction because I am not sure what can be done to fix these issues once in for all. And even if I were to fix them, they'd be back again and I'd have to start all over again. I can study work hard to get a good job and very likely face a layoff right after I join and I have seen all this firsthand. My wife and mom can get along well for now (very unlikely), but it's only a question of time before an argument breaks out. I don't see any point in setting goals, because I am then anxious until I achieve them and once there, there's the next one. I don't think I am depressed because, despite all of this, I enjoy nature, I enjoy having a good meal, I enjoy watching a good movie. I am just tired of the rat race, constant comparison with peers of my age. I just want to retire and do my own thing. I know everyone has these feelings, but I just feel so strongly about these that I find it worthless to do anything
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Welcome to Psych Central, ak. I read, in one of your other posts, that you're going to be seeing a therapist. I hope you find that to be helpful. There is such a thing as "existential depression". And perhaps this is similar to what you're experiencing? Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject, the first 2 by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D.:
What is Existential Depression? Coping with Existential Depression Existential Despair: A Deeper Cause of Human Anxiety I hope you're finding PC to be of benefit. __________________ "I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last) |
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