[MatBell]

Feel so lonely. Awful day. I feel a lot of things, not easy to describe it all.

[Fuzzybear]

I’m sending hugs

[Mopey]

I'm sending hugs too, MatBell. Anything you might want to talk about? I've been wondering how you were doing.

[mountainstream]

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Feel so lonely. Awful day. I feel a lot of things, not easy to describe it all.

Been awhile since we spoke.

Anything we can do to help?

*hugs*

[Thirty shades]

Hugs

[Mopey]

Anyway, even if you don’t feel like talking, I’m thinking of you. Sending comforting thoughts, more hugs, and good wishes. ♥️

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're feeling so lonely, MatBell! Is there anything you want to talk about? Anything that we can do to help you to make you feel a little bit less lonely? ANYTHING AT ALL! Just MENTION IT and TELL US what we can do for you and we'll DO IT and we'll TRY OUR BEST to HELP YOU OUT! I PROMISE YOU THAT! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! You're a WONDERFUL person, MatBell and you don't deserve to feel lonely AT ALL! Please DO remember that you're loved and wanted here! We ALL DO care about you and what you have to say! You can start to describe your feelings one at the time if you want to! Perhaps that will make it a little bit easier and it will make you feel a little bit better! What do you think about it? You're AWESOME! You're STRONG! You're A WARRIOR! You're AN AWESOME STORNG, WARRIOR! You're STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! I PROMISE YOU THAT! PLEASE ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, MatBell!

[MatBell]

Thanks to you all, it helps. Yesterday I felt rejection both at work and when I came home. I quickly feel rejection, and at work I imagine a lot of things that might not be true. And I get worked up. At home I heard people around me, neighbors, having fun. And it just got to me. I wish I could be more in balance with my thoughts.
You are very kind.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Thanks to you all, it helps. Yesterday I felt rejection both at work and when I came home. I quickly feel rejection, and at work I imagine a lot of things that might not be true. And I get worked up. At home I heard people around me, neighbors, having fun. And it just got to me. I wish I could be more in balance with my thoughts.
You are very kind.

I understand how that feels.

You are loved here.

❤

[Mopey]

I understand too, MatBell. Even though I am a real, card-carrying loner, and have been since birth, and have really accepted that fact, I still often feel left out when I see people talking, socializing, or discussing things they have done or will do together. Even though I don't really want to be a part of their arrangements, I still feel the pain.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Hope you are feeling better ❤

[MatBell]

Originally Posted by Mopey

I understand too, MatBell. Even though I am a real, card-carrying loner, and have been since birth, and have really accepted that fact, I still often feel left out when I see people talking, socializing, or discussing things they have done or will do together. Even though I don't really want to be a part of their arrangements, I still feel the pain.

I am a loner too. I like being by myself. But of course, it can be too much at times and very painful. Like physical pain.

[Mopey]

Thank you, MatBell. I truly am with you in spirit.

On a more mundane note, anything in particular you are up to this weekend? I spent most of yesterday struggling with my computer, which was not doing what I wanted it to, and today after lunch my husband and I are going to go over to the huge Salvation Army thrift store which has suddenly started being open on Sundays. I love thrift stores.

Of course by now I guess you're pretty much through with your weekend, since Denmark is about 8 hours ahead of us....

[MatBell]

Originally Posted by Mopey

Thank you, MatBell. I truly am with you in spirit.


On a more mundane note, anything in particular you are up to this weekend? I spent most of yesterday struggling with my computer, which was not doing what I wanted it to, and today after lunch my husband and I are going to go over to the huge Salvation Army thrift store which has suddenly started being open on Sundays. I love thrift stores.


Of course by now I guess you're pretty much through with your weekend, since Denmark is about 8 hours ahead of us....

I just relaxed in the weekend. Yes you can get good stuff in thrift stores, practically new things.
Today is not good.
Now I’m back from work after only a couple of hours. Said I was sick. I am a bit but mainly I’m so sick of being ignored there and treated like I’m nothing. Don’t know what will happen now.. I’m sure they have a lot to say about me now over there right now, and not pleasant things..

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I just relaxed in the weekend. Yes you can get good stuff in thrift stores, practically new things.
Today is not good.
Now I’m back from work after only a couple of hours. Said I was sick. I am a bit but mainly I’m so sick of being ignored there and treated like I’m nothing. Don’t know what will happen now.. I’m sure they have a lot to say about me now over there right now, and not pleasant things..

Sounds like you need another job or disability. But the stress on this one is gonna kill ya - if not physically then by mh complications.

[Mopey]

Yeah, it doesn't sound as if your internship is going particularly well. A job - especially the wrong job - can really wreak havoc with your life. Personally I rarely minded the work itself; it was the people and the politicking that got to me. ()

As a matter of fact, MatBell, your description of leaving work early reminded me of something very similar that I did once. The people at work always ignored me too, and one day when they were all over at the supervisor's desk laughing and talking, and ignoring me as usual, I got so angry that I just plain got up and left. I just left work. I didn't even tell anyone, I just got up and left work an hour and a half early. This is so totally not like me...

When the supervisor finally noticed and called me at home I made up some cockamamie excuse about having given blood that day and become disoriented as to time, blah, blah, blah, (which was actually true about the giving blood part, not the disoriented part) and so I got away with it that once.

But if I hadn't been massively pissed and upset I would never ever have done that. So I definitely feel your pain....