What Else????

What else could possibly go wrong. I thought I was doing OK. But it hasn't been a good year. I've been working through the anger I feel from being abandoned and abused as a child.

I said something to a dear friend during a really bad time this summer and now I don't have her anymore. I lost the person I could talk to.

My boss is an *****. I will get my annual review next week and I can pretty much guarantee he's going to screw me on it. He sees these opportunities to "get you". He's told me that as I have written reviews for my field teams.

And if that isn't enough my sister, who I have lived with for all but 5 years of our lives announced she was moving in with her partner. Some of you may find it lame that I have lived with my sister for so long, but what started out as a convenience, (both out of college and poor) turned into a really nice arrangement. We already knew each other's quirks, etc.

I am thrilled for her and if she were to make a different decision because of me I would be upset with her. I don't want ANYONE making life decisions because of me.

But it feels like yet another rejection. I don't think I am a bad person. People comment on how nice I am, how understanding and how funny I am. So why???

Now, I wonder what else...

I am sorry you have so much on your plate right now. Maybe you can take the good points out of your evaluation and work on them next year.

I am sorry your sister is moving but am glad you can see how it is a good thing for her.

It sounds like you are working through your anger which is awesome. I hope you continue to heal from when you were young.

BB

Here's what else:

Thanks BB and Doh - when it rains it pours.