I feel hopeless. I feel like I failed my children. I say negative things. I complain to my husband and am the opposite of uplifting. I think and talk about death and calamity. I prepare for the worst instead of planning for the best. Since I am such a downer when I am depressed, I isolate more because I don't want to bring others down; however, I am still functional. I cook, pay the bills, bath, work if I have a job, etc but I don't do any of it as well when I am depressed. A positive attitude is the key to success and it is so hard to be positive when you are depressed. I know that when I am like this, nothing good will come from my interactions so I try to do the world a big favor by not interacting as much.....
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