[3rd rock]

Nobody's going to help me. Nobody's going to give me a free lunch. Nobody's ever going to stand up for me and argue how deplorable it is that I've got such a history of psychiatric problems that aren't effectively treated. Nobody's going to ever talk about all the obstacles that've been put in my path since I was born. And if I ever make it, it'll be all on my own, and still I'll get lectured by people who don't know anything about me that I've supposedly been handed everything in my life.

[Buffy01]

I feel really down tonight.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Nobody's going to help me. Nobody's going to give me a free lunch. Nobody's ever going to stand up for me and argue how deplorable it is that I've got such a history of psychiatric problems that aren't effectively treated. Nobody's going to ever talk about all the obstacles that've been put in my path since I was born. And if I ever make it, it'll be all on my own, and still I'll get lectured by people who don't know anything about me that I've supposedly been handed everything in my life.

I'm sorry that you are struggling right now.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Not much of an exciting weekend, even though I was busy both days. Today I put my weights together and packed them in my car. Someone at where I work wants to buy it. Unfortunately I was not able to put my bench in the car, since it doesn't fit. The buyer, I guess, doesn't really care if he gets the bench or not. But I wanted to get rid of it. This is kind of sad that after some 25 years, those weights are going to be out of my life. And it's all because of my neighbor having to complain about it.

I went for a three hour bike ride today.

Another dull weekend is about to come to an end. I dread going to work on Mondays, but I don't know why? I like my job. It seems like it's at work where I really have a social life. I guess that's the way it is for some people.

Do you feel relief getting rid of the weight.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

I’m so tired.

I understand I feel tired myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

My current project will be finished by the end of November. My next project will be started on at that time.

Is that a good thing?

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Turtle_Rider

It's been awful for the last couple week. I failed to get a bigger job. Next, our division got into a big trouble because one member carelessly responded to a spam email. It seems like we're going to lose everything and have to start all over again. And now, I just heard that a good coworker will be fired soon.

Home is worse. I got into more arguments with my parents, from a very small matter to big one. The fight worsens every day.

I wish I could run away somewhere.

I'm sorry that you had to go through that.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Some feelings of depression and dissociation. Some feelings of not wanting to be here. Mostly just trying to get distracted and not be hard on myself. Kind of bored today too. Tomorrow should be a busy day at work though.

Perhaps I should probably distract myself.

[Deilla]

@Buffy01 sorry you're feeling down. Yea, a distraction would be good. Try to do something fun and take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon. (safe hugs)

[stahrgeyzer]

I feel like a bulldozer ran over me then backed up.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

Is that a good thing?

Not really. This is pointless and I'm terrible at it. The only thing I'm good at, and I'm no good at it.

[will19]

Very slow at work today. It made the time go by so slow. After work I took my bike to a repair shop. I liked the service guy right away. Got an estimate and it was unbelievably inexpensive. I used to go to another bike shop when I lived at the other place and they would do a lot of work and charged a lot. So we'll see how this will work out.

Today was probably the first day in a long time that I didn't do anything after work, at least exercising. It felt weird. I won't be bike riding after work for a while because of the sun setting early.

Also I had been looking online for band resistance - that will be in place of the weights that I used to do. It seems overwhelming to decide what to get and I'm not very clear on how it works. I got rid of all of the weights and the bench. It felt very bad at first but I think I'm over it.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay this morning. I'm trying to sleep but I keep waking up. It's a little frustrating. I'm going to try to stay up for a little bit and do something fun. I'll need more sleep eventually. I see my med provider today.

[mote.of.soul]

Been in a low, a depression, for the past five hours but I'm climbing out. Had to sleep for two of those hours - just couldn't take it.

Certain things trigger me to a deep inner rage, humiliation, despair and suicidal thoughts of 'I'm done with this. I want to leave now' - all exacerbated by my bad social anxiety [probably Avoidant Personality Disorder, actually]. Day in and day out. Year in and year out! Haha, oh my goodness.

Peace & Love to you fellow fighters.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

@Buffy01 sorry you're feeling down. Yea, a distraction would be good. Try to do something fun and take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon. (safe hugs)

I need to figured out what to do that is fun at home since I have trouble getting around. I wish that I knew why I feel so down.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Not really. This is pointless and I'm terrible at it. The only thing I'm good at, and I'm no good at it.

I'm sorry that you feel low.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear Beloved PC Comembers, I feel so sad listening to what you're going through. I can only offer my love & condolences. I also identify with so much of what you say. So, we are not alone! We have each other! God bless all of you! Lots of hugs to you all!! With love.

[puzzclar]

Another sad day. I can barely focus. I've been home for one week and already not where I need to be. I need support. I need to stop using my addictive behaviors. I need to get my studying in.

Here I sit, and I need to workout but my hip hurts and I don't want to do anything to upset the hip.

Needless to say I hate life.

[Spirit of Trees]

I'm tired of having to initiate to see or talk any of my friends. Maybe the few friends I have are sick of me - sick of the depressed/anxious me. I want to believe the lack of contact isn't intentional, but the more I think about it, the more likely it seems that most of my friendships have reached their expiry date :c

[mote.of.soul]

Not a happy camper right now. Doesn't seem to be a day goes by without something breaking me. It's not good when you don't look forward to tomorrow.

Peace & Love. Got to hold on to something.