Overthinking topics

About a year ago I did stuff to deep to get onto. But I am curious others point of view about my topic. So I have thoughts about my depression and how it steals a lot joy. There are more but here are couple of examples. I have thoughs that I don't enjoy watching my favorite shows on tv which was great escape for me. Totally enjoying time with my dog always my sidekick my support animal. My mind comes up with things like "he is a chore now" I never had those thoughts till i tell into my deep depression and ruminations. I needed those shows to deal with ruminations. I need to escape these my ruminations I have for over a year now. My brother calls it tripping. But they these thoughts that keep popping in my head all the time. No distractions work, because when i do anything the ruminations run in the background , it drives me insane. I have severe change in the last year. I have had ruminations but none this severe. It could be Due to me not be happy about where I got myself in life. There misery. I even question them by not say they are true but they keep beating up my mind.