[CezarjaKurKur]

Yeah...at 16 yo i feel my life makes no sense. I'm going to shorten the story as much as I can so that i manage not to write a novel. My situation is as follows:
1. Im in the 11th grade and school is boring, useless, my classmates are obsessed with parties, boys and makeup, which i do not care abt.
2. The town i live in is oppressive, ppl are close-minded, only thinking about what they're going to eat tomorrow (although many of them have a good income, they're still fearful of everything).
3. I'm in the winter vacation, which ends on january 13th and I'm crying once again bcuz school starts. Crying at 16 for such a reason really means something. I still have 1 and a half years to wait until i leave for college, in a more open-minded city with people who do care about your passions.
4. The atmosphere in my high school is horrible. You either have too much homework or you bore all day. As i said, I don't like my classmates. Oh, and my teachers are not passionate at all.
5. I'm losing all motivation to study even what i need to in order to pass the college entrance exam.
6. Lately I've been wondering why i even bother doing anything. It's not like someone cares, right? After all, I'm going to die sooner or later and probably i won't have accomplished anything and changed anything important. At 80, I'll probably have been just another brick in the wall and when I'm dead everything will stay the same and ppl will forget abt me. In no way am i contemplating suicide, but lately it has been involuntarily crossing my mind that I'd be better off dead by 25 rather than 80 since my life seems to be so average. I'm not implying that there's anything wrong with being an average Joe but I feel like I'm inhaling Earth's oxygen for no reason. If I'm going to die as an insignificant human being, at least do it sooner so that i don't stay depressed for so long. Can you believe i cry as if my heart would break at least once a week?
My life has been tough and I've been suffering from different types of anxiety...maybe I'm making it even more complicated myself....Idk...but what i know is that my outlook is not healthy and i need to get a grip on myself.

[Skeezyks]

Hello CezarjaKurKur: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. The School & Study Issues forum, here on PC, may be one additional forum that will be of interest to you. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/school-and-study-issues/

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time especially at such a young age. (By the way... you mentioned imagining, when you're 80, you'll be just another brick in the wall. Well... I'm 71! And, yes, I guess I'm just another brick in the wall. But I have to say, once you get there, being just another brick in the wall has its benefits.

Here are links to 6 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

8 Tips for Teenage Depression

Tips for Finding Motivation When You're Depressed

12 Tips to Get Motivated When You're Stuck in a Life Rut

https://psychcentral.com/blog/techni...your-emotions/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/what-is...al-depression/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.