[smilenowcrylater]

About a week ago, my best friend ran away from home to be with some 18 year old boy she met on tinder. She didn’t tell any of her family or friends, she didn’t even bring clothes or anything at all with her. So I thought that she was kidnapped or in human trafficking and I cried every single because I blamed myself. A couple days before she ran away my mom said I should invite her over to our house to sleepover if things at her house aren’t good bc she didn’t really have a good home life. But I told my mom how she moved back in with her parents and how they said they were gonna change for her and how everything was fine. But If I had just invited her over to sleepover she wouldn’t have ran away. I remember last week on Monday I started thinking abt her bc our mutual friend said he thinks she killed herself, so at abt 6am and I just started bawling uncontrollably. I couldn’t stop and by 8am I was nauseous and disgusted with myself and with life. I was so mad at the fact that I wasn’t able to control my emotions, I was able to get myself to stop crying for like 3 seconds at a time but then it would just come back worse. At 8:30am I did a coward move bc I honestly felt like I was being tortured, like I was gonna die bc I was crying so hard so I took NyQuil at 8:30am and blasted happy music in my ears until I fell asleep. At the time I believed I would rather sleep or drug myself than feel the way I did. And then I woke up at abt 3pm to my best friend texting me she’s back and how the police picked her up at 5am that morning and how she was fine. And I was so happy she was ok but I’ve still just been in this dark state. Like I thought I just needed her to comeback for me to feel better again but even after she was found I was still just melancholic. And idk what to do to get out of. I don’t want to do anything.

[Skeezyks]

Hello smilenowcrylater: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. (I see this is actually your second post since you posted this thread in the Addictions forum as well.) Anyway... welcome to Psych Central.

I'm sorry you had this distressing experience. But I'm glad your friend is home & okay. (I hope you can accept that none of this was really your fault. Your friend has to take responsibility for her own actions.)

At the end of your post you wrote that even after your friend was home & safe you still felt melancholic. You don't know what to do. And you don't want to do anything. I don't know as I have any particularly useful advice to offer you. However, here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) can be of some help. (I've made the assumption here that you are a teen. If that is not the case please forgive me):

Techniques for Teens: How to Cope with Your Emotions

9 Inventive Ways to Identify and Process Your Emotions

8 Creative Techniques to Cope with Painful Emotions

Difficult Emotions: One Approach You'll Want to Try

Therapists Spill: 14 Ways to Get Through Tough Times

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[sarahsweets]

Your friend would have run away with this boy regardless of whether she came to your house for a sleepover or not. It was a plan that the two of them made.