[Oizys]

Lately, I've felt alone. It doesn't matter if I'm alone, in a room full of people, or with a close friend. I feel unheard and forgotten a lot. I strive to be the person that puts their friends and loved ones above all else, but, especially lately, it doesn't feel like anyone does that for me.

I have PTSD and severe anxiety and lately severe depression. I have been slightly suicidal and especially worse being alone. Each of my two friends have been extremely busy moving or sulking over their lives. I try to be nice and I've been helping both of them with their mental health and relationships for over a few months as they were depressed and going through rough times. I mean going as far as staying up til the break of dawn most nights to make sure they were okay.

Now, I have tried to reach out and say I'm having a hard time alone and need some support and just some company and they don't have time. I try to talk and they ignore me and change the subject. My fiance who loves me dearly also suffers from PTSD and has been having a rough time so hasn't really been able to help either.

My family and I don't talk. I try to call them and all of them are always too busy just the same. I'm so tired of always being pushed aside by people I move mountains for. I'm so tired of being alone and just keep self medicating to deal with my own depression.

I'm sorry, I might delete this. Just wanted to vent I guess.😕

[Yzen]

I think some loneliness comes from within, so it isn't about having people around. It is feeling heard and supported.

I hope it gets better for you soon.

[captaineo]

I am sorry to hear this about your situation. You should focus on yourself make new friends. I gave up on my family long ago, I don’t ask them to come and see me and I don’t expect anything from them. Of course I try to be different and tell them I love them every once in a while but that is about it.

[captaineo]

Oizys don’t give up.

[Deilla]

As Yzen said, I feel loneliness comes from not feeling heard or understood. I'm sorry you are going through that and that your friends and family aren't supportive right now. You sound like a giver. And it's unfair that no one will give back to you. Yes, see if you can make some supportive friends. Also, give to yourself. Sometimes that's the only thing we can do.