[Kelly68]

I've been way too worried, but there's things I have to get done, and I can't rely on someone else to help me with. I'm hoping my little old car will be fixed soon and it's not too much cost. If not, it will have to be junked. I feel more depressed than anything else. I wish I could change things in the last year or two but that thinking gets me nowhere.

[3rd rock]

I released my latest novel. It's radically different from anything I've ever written. It's an erotic novel written under a new pen name. It's only been two days but it's already a failure.

I am missing a lot of work lately. I've not worked a full week since May. I keep calling in sick. I called in sick yesterday and I will call in sick tomorrow. I'm at work right now. It's very difficult to work when I am extremely depressed and in a lot of pain.

[3rd rock]

And my truck won't start. It needs a new battery. I've been boosting it with a booster pack but I need a new battery. That costs money.

[Kelly68]

3rd Rock, don't give up. 2 days doesn't mean a failure when writing something. Hang in there, life's tough so many times and then with depression..

I don't know what to do today... just as i'm discussing problems my landlord a roomate walk in, I still have a blush on my face. It's personal stuff. It's expected when sharing living space but I don't know how much they heard. I really wish I had my own place.

[Lostislost]

I have 2 weeks until my due date. I am huge and lonely and scared about what is to come. I don't feel like I can reach out to anyone. I miss seeing people in work and it taking my mind off things. I wonder if I should have chosen a c section so I had a date to look forward to and not have to deal with anything down there. I'm just crying today.

[regretful]

Anxiety crept in yesterday, but depression is the overarching unwelcome companion that is with me everywhere I turn. I'm having trouble keeping up on the many tasks and must-do things. As always, I wish you all well in your struggle with this beast

[will19]

Had a few little things to do, but not much. I'm still trying to get used to hanging low, which is really hard for me.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I released my latest novel. It's radically different from anything I've ever written. It's an erotic novel written under a new pen name. It's only been two days but it's already a failure.

Congratulations on the novel... two days or even two months is not really enough time to judge, especially given how some of the most popular works ever didn't catch on until years after their release.

I'm mostly a reader of sci-fi, gritty detective or lawyer story and James Patterson-style pulp fiction, but maybe if you feel like sharing a link to the book, we could have a look...

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been not quite myself lately.

[Deilla]

I had my third and final back procedure yesterday. I'm feeling less pain today. I went to bed early I was so tired. I've been busy this morning. My mood is good.

[will19]

I was pretty busy this morning with shopping and laundry. Nothing much after that. I made an attempt to call on a cousin of mine, whom I haven't spoken to in a couple of decades. I had always liked him and for some strange reason, he had been on my mind. I got a couple of phone numbers on him and tried them but they were both disconnected.

[Rose76]

I have been doing next to nothing all day every day. I just have little interest in taking care of things. 2 weeks worth of mail sits piled up and unopened. I need a personal assistant.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

I was pretty busy this morning with shopping and laundry. Nothing much after that. I made an attempt to call on a cousin of mine, whom I haven't spoken to in a couple of decades. I had always liked him and for some strange reason, he had been on my mind. I got a couple of phone numbers on him and tried them but they were both disconnected.

I'm sorry. Maybe another relative can help? I'm crossing my fingers for you.

[will19]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I'm sorry. Maybe another relative can help? I'm crossing my fingers for you.

Thanks, but I don't have much with relatives. I don't have many cousins and they all have busy lives. Plus we had drifted apart because of busyness and moving out of the area. It was extremely awkward enough as it was for me to make that call, especially when my cousin didn't expect to ever hear from me.

As far as trying to contact my cousin, I'm taking it like it wasn't meant to be.

[Deilla]

I am feeling tired and sad this morning. My back started bothering me while I was preparing food for a chili. I guess I am still recovering.

[will19]

Cleaned this morning and went to the store because I forgot an important ingredient to make my spaghetti sauce. Afterwards, nothing much as usual lately. Since I had my procedure last Monday, I have felt "grounded" and "shut down". It looks like it's going to continue that way for next week. I hope I can make it emotionally, since it's so hard.

[Breaking Dawn]

Sometimes today it's been pretty difficult. But I'm ok enough at the moment.

[Kelly68]

I think I might have a plan for my problems, it's financial and housing. I think I see a light at the end of the tunnel.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by T4bbyCat

Congratulations on the novel... two days or even two months is not really enough time to judge, especially given how some of the most popular works ever didn't catch on until years after their release.

I'm mostly a reader of sci-fi, gritty detective or lawyer story and James Patterson-style pulp fiction, but maybe if you feel like sharing a link to the book, we could have a look...

I'm afraid I can't postva link publicly because I don't want my posts to be associated with my literary persona. However if you would like to see I could send you a private message with a link to my books on Amazon.

[Kelly68]

I'm not well at all. I want this mess figured out, I thought I got good advice, but not really. This is unbelievably hard, I never thought I'd run into the problems I'm having. I didn't sleep a wink all night and not well for months. I said I'd count my blessings, I just don't know why things went so wrong.... I feel like I'm completely lost. I hope I get sleep today...... I wish no one had depression... it's a lot harder than most people can understand.