[Kelly68]

3rd day over. I couldn't stand longer, I had to leave early. Every customer was satisfied. It's a demanding franchise. I'm questioning if I made the right decision to ask for the job back. I'll make just a bit more than I have on disability, and I'm realizing I'm worn so thin, I'm so sore. I had to take a pain pill and aleve. I was hardly able to get going after 2 hours sleep again.

I was diagnosed bipolar many years ago. Then it was major depression. I've hardly known peace in my whole life. I've so rarely had one full day where I can say I felt good. I wanted to feel like I could do this, for just a little self confidence and independence. But I'm in "high gear" i can't stop thinking. Doesn't even matter, I take all my meds and can't shut my brain off. There's so much noise at work I feel I'm getting deaf.

I hope they stop pushing being there for several more hours than it was last year. I'm not able to even sit for more than 30 min in a 12 hour plus commute drive day. I'm fed up too, someone stole my tips. I made over 80 in tips my first day, I did take pride in my work and making people happy. Life can suck.

I feel OK and well!

[Deilla]

I don't feel all that well. I didn't sleep much and I had a difficult evening. Today I have one stressful event. The rest of the time I will try to relax. I might have some light housework to do.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's been quite a struggle but I keep trying, & I have been busy this morning already working on a goal. I hope to keep doing that today. I wish so much I could succeed the way I want to. I think my emotional pain would lessen if I saw noticeable progress from my efforts. I feel a little bit of hope & belief that I will experience a positive sign pretty soon that I'm heading upward, back into my better self.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

It's been quite a struggle but I keep trying, & I have been busy this morning already working on a goal. I hope to keep doing that today. I wish so much I could succeed the way I want to. I think my emotional pain would lessen if I saw noticeable progress from my efforts. I feel a little bit of hope & belief that I will experience a positive sign pretty soon that I'm heading upward, back into my better self.

I hope you will see progress, even if the progress is just a tiny bit!

[will19]

I woke up feeling bad. Yesterday was not a good day and I feel like I'm recovering from it. I didn't sleep well last night. Just after 2 AM this morning I got roused out of sleep with sirens from the police. On the next street over, the police had parked with their lights on and I could see them with flashlights looking for someone. Also there was a low-flying helicopter circling around, so it was very noisy. Apparently the police were looking for a criminal who was hiding. So some hard-core criminal is hiding and lurking at where I live!

I hope that today will be a better day than yesterday.

Originally Posted by will19

Apparently the police were looking for a criminal who was hiding. So some hard-core criminal is hiding and lurking at where I live!

I hope that today will be a better day than yesterday.

I hope that for you as well; that your day will become good! My day started well and has continued to be so. I cross my fingers for a good tomorrow.

[Rose76]

I'm home from the hospital for the past 8 hrs. Since getting a blood transfusion, I feel much improved.

Don't feel depressed for now.

Good to hear that you are better!

I am a bit tired after my jogging outside, but still feel this is a good day!

feel okay

accept for the fact that I ache because I've been in the shower

[will19]

Busy this morning. Not feeling so good emotionally so far. Later on yesterday was not a good time. I had arguments with my sister and friend. And those two are the only people I have in my life. I didn't sleep well again last night.

[Rose76]

I've got a lot of housework to catch up on. For a few weeks I neglected so much. I thought it was due to depression, though I didn't feel that despondent. Turns out I was severely anemic. That got corrected in the hospital by a blood transfusion.

Now I look at what a mess the place is, and I don't know where to start. I guess it doesn't matter where . . . . just start anywhere.

The doctors at the hospital figured I must be bleeding in my gut somewhere. They did scopes of upper and lower GI tract, but didn't find any ulcer or any other abnormality. So I have more tests to go for as an outpatient.

This is about the 3rd time I've been seriously anemic in the past year. Doctors don't know why. I hope the anemia doesn't return for a while - at least long enough for me to get my apartment cleaned and straightened up.

I'ld been taking a pain medication that was helping me. Now I can't take it because doctors fear it could be the cause of internal bleeding. It's hard to get things done when I feel sore.

[Breaking Dawn]

Today has not been very good, but I'm not giving up. Still time ahead of me today, & I'm looking forward to a tv show I like.

[will19]

Today was a better day than the last two, thank goodness. The only bad thing that happened was that I had a cart I borrowed from my apartment to take in my groceries. While I was loading in the cart, the cart got away and rolled down a small hill. The cart then crashed into a curb on the side of the road and the items I had flew out and scattered. The only damage I had was a dozen eggs that fell to the pavement and all of them broke. Oh well! At least there were no other damages.

I called my old college friend this afternoon. We had a pretty good talk. But for some reason, he doesn't quite seem the same as he was back in the college days. Also he had to mention an ex-friend who had done me wrong. I had told him many times that I never want to hear about the ex-friend.

Originally Posted by will19

The only damage I had was a dozen eggs that fell to the pavement and all of them broke. Oh well! At least there were no other damages.

I like your sense of humor!

Originally Posted by will19

Also he had to mention an ex-friend who had done me wrong. I had told him many times that I never want to hear about the ex-friend.

That was not kind, to rip up (indirectly) old wounds.

My neighbors had a party yesterday evening (inside and outside their home), high music. I managed to fall asleep, but woke up around 02:00 am. Still noises from the party, but not so loud. I haven't slept since, but somehow I feel well now. We'll see how long that lasts. I will try to go on with my planned activities, but take a nap if I need it.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

Today was a better day than the last two, thank goodness. The only bad thing that happened was that I had a cart I borrowed from my apartment to take in my groceries. While I was loading in the cart, the cart got away and rolled down a small hill. The cart then crashed into a curb on the side of the road and the items I had flew out and scattered. The only damage I had was a dozen eggs that fell to the pavement and all of them broke. Oh well! At least there were no other damages.

I called my old college friend this afternoon. We had a pretty good talk. But for some reason, he doesn't quite seem the same as he was back in the college days. Also he had to mention an ex-friend who had done me wrong. I had told him many times that I never want to hear about the ex-friend.

I'm sorry about the eggs. And sorry about your college friend mentioning a bad thing. But I have to say, you seem to be adjusting to this huge change in your life very well. Kudos to you.

[Kelly68]

I'm very ill mentally and physically, that job is good but i now have a weird rash on my skin. It's not a good thing when you can't wash people's hair. One poor girl was just ciated with oil builduo and im qestioning this rash... customers have diiferent serious skin diseases and i may have caught one as i cut myself several times with my scissors.. im diabetic and dehydration set in from swearing with no ac at work. I get shaky when my blood sugar goes too low. I'll need to buy quickr elease glucose tableyd. Someone stole my tips, im running on wind and water.. in debt..no appetite. [trigger warning]

Possible trigger:

I have frequent thoughts of sui.

[Deilla]

I'm doing ok. Today I plan to relax both physically and emotionally. I have been busy lately. I want to nurture myself today and take it easy.