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Old 01-11-2021, 09:02 PM   #1
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Honestly, things had not panned out the way I had hoped.

My 3 year relationship ended just when we were looking to get our own place, now I feel stuck wondering if I can do it on my own.

Itís been over two and a half years since I self harmed, and honestly I donít think I can hold out much longer. My ex was a big factor in me stopping.

My depression is intense right now. Every day I wake up, and I feel truly awful. And it is so hard to keep going. What is the meaning? The reason? When it all just feels wrong.

Iím on a slippery slope to nowhere good, and I donít know how to get off.
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Old 01-11-2021, 09:07 PM   #2
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I do not feel ďwellĒ
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I'm sorry A relationship breakup like this is a triggering and sad life event (obviously). I hope you find something (or someone) who can help. A breakup is worse if it's unexpected too I guess (I broke up with an ex fiance which was hard and hurtful but since he was abusive..... it would have been worse to shack up together permanently It can help to remember there are other people out there who you could also get on with maybe (but this would take time). I'm sorry the professionals are not more helpful. (I understand this....) I am sure there will be people who will suggest a ''med change''... I think DBT would be more helpful than ''meds only'' (or some minimal sort of ''professional support'') as far as ''treatment'' but I don't know the situation that well. Hugs. People here will listen (for what that is worth..) And.. nobody is hopeless.
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Old 01-13-2021, 05:57 PM   #4
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Thank you fuzzy. I actually started some private counselling today. She seemed nice. Hopefully it will work out better then the nhs alternatives iíve had to deal with in the past. Its a shame i have to go down this route but the nhs mental health services discarded me a while ago now.
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Old 01-13-2021, 06:49 PM   #5
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Baby steps are better than nothing, I hope it works out for you with her. Iím really sorry about your breakup, it always feels like it will hurt forever, but once it stops being so raw the pain lessens a bit each day. Grieve it on your own timeline, and remember grieving isnít a linear process either.
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Honestly though, tonight isnít good. I feel like Iím going back 3 or 4 years. And I hate it, yet canít seem to stop it.
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So sorry, whisperingSkye I don't want you to hurt yourself

No wonder you're struggling. It sounds like an incredibly tough time for you

I'm no stranger to self-damaging behaviours, so I completely understand the compulsion (ED's, mostly, for me), and how it can resurface at any time.

You don't deserve to be hurt! I say that from my heart You are a precious, kind, gentle, intelligent, lovely person
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