Hate this ****ing world

Sick of this ****ing world. Nothing works, everythibg is breaking down. I ****ing hate everything, hate my own place in this, hate being alone, hate this ****ing lockdown, division, social media, **** this place is not liveable anymore it’s impossible to live a life today without wanting to jump off a bridge everyday.

Yeah it’s pretty wild out there now. But hang in there because at the very least, even if they don’t get better, per se things are at least always changing. It won’t be like this forever.

Some time I feel like this myself

I feel very much the same way. Since the pandemic happened, and especially up to now, I find myself not liking this world much and feeling more irritated about the smallest things. We have the pandemic plus political unrest and racial differences. Just having one of those is more than enough to bear.

I will say that the pandemic has not made my social life go down much further. It was already not that great before it happened. But at least there was hope to have an opportunity to make my life better. So many times I had worked pretty hard to make my life better in so many ways and didn't succeed.

Also, since the pandemic, I've felt like I don't like my job anymore. I used to like it a whole lot. So many people are working at home now and I miss a lot of them. And the people that work at my site seem like they are in bad moods. I've wanted to retire now. I've wanted to retire because of the way things are going at my job now. I didn't feel that way before the pandemic hit. And if I were to retire now, what would I do with myself since everything is so restrictive.

Sometimes I can relate to this. I certainly intensely dislike some of the behaviours of some so called intelligent ''humans''