NotDeadYet

Kinda just a vent ngl

I just want to die at this point, theres no point in living or trying anymore, Im 22 yet I feel like Ive wasted my life already and why bother existing?

I hate my job and I cut at work often, I cant stand the sight of myself and I hate the fact that Im too much of a ***** to actually do anything

I know Ill never amount to anything, all my art looks like **** and I have zero will to do my hobbies. I regret taking this job cause it's just tanked my mental health.

And I know everyone hates me, they prolly wish I was dead too, why would they ever want someone as boring and uninteresting as me to be alive? Wasting space that someone better can fill.

I might kill myself over this, I really dont think it will get better.

zapatoes

Are you currently in counseling and do you have friends or family you can call for support. Hope things get better for you very soon.

NotDeadYet

Ive never actually been to formal counseling and I dont want to bother my friends too much as they are also mentally ill/I dont want to burden them too much. And I dont trust my family enough to tell them anything either. I feel like its a waste of time anyway, i feel like theyd all be happier if I was dead

zapatoes

I’m sorry you are feeling this way. Do you have hobbies you usually enjoy to help distract you. Do you have a structured routine such as a job to help keep you busy. Stay safe.