Looking for accountability partners (task check in) #2

Mom fell and hit her head and broke her wrist. She will need surgery. That makes things more complicated but I feel up to the task. Today I took my brother to the doctor and the pharmacy and bought lunch for everyone. I’m going to relax outside for a while with a good book then focus on the dishes, everybody’s laundry and cleaning the house in general. Later, I will reward myself by shopping for fall flowers. I’m looking forward to that.

I wish everybody a good day!

The "black dog" has continually beaten me for days, included Friday were I skipped meals as well. I was really down. Late in the evening I wrote a letter I don't intend to send. That stopped the "black dog" from barking.

The letter shed light on some topics from different corners. To get a "helicopter view" on the situation at last made me calm. I ate two slices of bread and cheese, drank lots of water and went to bed. Have had a good night's sleep. "Helicopter view" is a term used at the British "Get self help". If you want to look into it, scroll down to the video and see it at youtube. Helicopter | Get.gg - Getselfhelp.co.uk May be it can help you, some day, in a situation when you yourself feel complete out of ideas for how to move on.

This morning I feel much better. I have got my belief in myself back. I will go and take a shower, then write a grocery list. I will have a light supper this day, a porridge that is only to be heated in the microwave. I will take care of clutter in the living room, put the dishwasher to work and the floor? I give a da.. in the floor. If there is time and energy I will do it, if not there will come another day.

For Sunday I am invited out for dinner. Monday I have planned to visit my church when it is not so crowded. Tuesday I will, for the first time since the Corona started, go hiking with some friends. At Wednesday I will rest.

See you after Wednesday!

In the time until then, may you all feel that what you are able to do is enough, and may you all feel well!

Jennifer, I'm sorry about your mother and hope you had fun finding fall flowers.


GoGo2, thank you for the helicopter technique, it looks like a good thing to bookmark. I heard an interesting technique recently. The gist was to think about your problems in the third person, addressing yourself by name instead of as 'I' or 'you.' I haven't tried it yet.


Floors... my kitchen floor really needs to be scrubbed and I keep putting it off. We talked about heading out of town for the weekend or at least one day but I am not sure either of us are really that interested in the idea. I think I am not going to commit to much today aside from doing the floor and mailing a letter.

I did the floor and mailed three letters. I wonder how I can remember to do the floor as soon as it bothers me - or maybe set up a schedule to do it so regularly that it never gets to that point? Kind of feels like I am doomed to be a slob since I have been for so long.


We went on a great hike yesterday and tried something new. I'm glad I saved the day for fun. I may do the same today though the weather will keep us indoors.


1. Portfolio
2. Cleaning

I did a lot of work around the house today and I showered. I'm not sure about tomorrow. If the weather is nice, I'll go for a drive. Hope everyone has a good Sunday!

I did a lot of work around the house and ran errands for mom and brother. The house is getting back into shape after all of these crises. Tomorrow

1. Decorate pumpkins
2. Take brother to doctor
3. Work with my sister on the house.

I hope everybody has a good week ahead!

Looking forward to today, not for any reason in particular, just because it looks nice out, I only have one thing scheduled (that I'm looking forward to), and I have hit a real milestone with my portfolio.

1. Look at calendar for upcoming week and make sure my regularly scheduled meetings are properly updated.
2. Use my to do list.
3. Outdoor exercise
4. Portfolio
5. Take care of stuff on porch.

I'm still thinking about how to get better at taking care of those things that drive me crazy and don't even take too long to fix. What a weird phenomenon, to walk by a small pile of junk, get angry with yourself for not taking care of it, but continuing not to do it - until you've spend 10x as much time being mad at yourself for neglecting the matter vs. how long it would take to actually resolve it.

Saturday did yard work, walked my dog and washed some clothes. Sunday ran errands, bought groceries and walked my dog, and accomplished my goals of doing yard and grocery shopping so I’m pretty happy. This week need to do PT daily, get some kind of exercise with walking outside or walking DVD or yoga DVD inside. Have a good week everyone.

Yesterday was solidly productive. I'd planned a small trip today but am feeling lazy already.

1. Trip
2. Errand
3. Accountability group

I haven't been on my drive yet. Things keep coming up. This morning is no good. Maybe I can this afternoon. I hope all of you are well.

I am stuck! I feel trapped in a self-defeating style. I am not motivated to do anything. It is like it is painful to stretch out an arm or a leg, I am just sitting here. My head is full of negative thoughts about myself

I ask myself if there is nothing I can do? What happened? I was in the town's center yesterday to visit a church. After that I walked to find the new bus-stop I was supposed to use this morning when connecting with friends for hiking. I became tired and became afraid that I didn't have the physical strength to go hiking with them. I decided to go on a hike alone in another district and train myself to go a distance as long as I knew they would go. Then I found myself depressed. I didn't make dinner, but ate many slices of bread with strawberry jam and my level of bloodsucker became dangerously high.

Today I am just sitting here ... I will try this way out: I will read about my old triggers in my old notebook and I will fill in TIREDNESS as a trigger. (May be it is tiredness and some other things I cannot point on). If tiredness is a trigger to me, I need to be able to accept that, slow down and find an alternative way.

My home has been very much cluttered the last days and I cannot let this continue. I will follow an advice from "The decider", set and amount of time to work that is possible for me to do, like 5 minutes or so. I think I will work/rest/work/rest in five minutes intervals for may be 30 minutes.

Thank you all for beieng here!

I hope you all are well!

It was a start-help for me to "announce" my state of being in the forum. I have had some minutes with therapy for myself (me to me therapy) and am now ready to try to go on in a slow tact.

Be well all!

I wish you well with forward progress.

I had a productive day yesterday. A family friend and my sister came over and we all tackled the house. The lawn care guy came over and the lawn looks nice as well. I had planned a mini getaway this morning but am filled with fear and trepidation for some reason. Odd. I don’t want to go anywhere. I’ll need to pick up my brother’s pain medicine at some point.

Today:
1. Therapy
2. Continue with house
3. Enjoy a walk in the park

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Maybe there is something in the air today? I decided to stay home instead of going on the trip I initially planned. I am struggling to stay focused on anything this morning. Maybe posting here will work for me as well. Revised goals:

1. Cook

2. Write up notes on today's reading.
3. Vigorous exercise of some form.

Thank you so much, Jennifer! I feel I am in the process, but have to be very careful to not let depressive thoughts govern my thought processes in the wrong way.

My plans for tomorrow:

- Some rest after breakfast (my blood sugar needs it).
- Physical and relaxation exercises.
- Some food.
- Go for a walk (max 20 minutes).
- Half an hour self study ("me to me therapy")
- Fill dishwasher and put it to work.
- Get rid of trash.
- Visit grocery store.
- Let the self-going vacuum-machine do the work in the living room.
- If not tired, I will try to wash the floor in the living room that need it so much.
- At least one hour of ordinary work.

I wish everybody on the thread a stress-free and good Wednesday!

This happens with me as well. Hugs.

Yesterday turned out okay though I never really did vigorous exercise, just settled for ten minutes of hand weights. Walking up hill seems to have a very positive effect on my blood sugar but it's a tough thing to force.


Today is going to be busy. Two meetings and two errands, one of which involves a long drive. Everything is compressed into the afternoon so I have a four hour block this morning for other things.

1. Decide if I need to travel at all and if so, when.
2. Do the research to answer the above.

3. Reading assignment.

I overslept this morning. I decided to drop the 20 minutes walk outside. I did both physical and relaxation exercises. I have put both the washing machine and the dishwasher to work. After my hovering machine had done it's job I washed the floor, so now it is clean. I feel proud.

I did not have the time I needed to do my ordinary work. So I skipped that.

I used a good portion of time on my self-help books and my private notes. I know that one good day does not mean that the crisis is over. I will watch myself carefully the next weeks.

My plans for tomorrow:

- Some rest after breakfast.
- Up at nine for a shower.
- Gym.
- Food.
- Work with self-help books and private notes.
- Self hypnoses.
- Grocery shop.
- Put washing machine to work again.

I wish all of you a tension free day with good work motivation for tomorrow!