I've been told, "Go talk to God."

When I started this thread I didn't know that I was sick.A few days later, I almost couldn't stand up or walk any distance. I called Uber to take me to the ER. They discovered I was severely anemic and kept me for 5 days. There were tests because they thought I was a GI bleed. I was given a transfusion of red blood cells. That made me feel a lot better and I could walk around. But I am still very anemic and taking iron pills. I tire easily.

So my not wanting to do much wasn't mainly from depression. It was severe anemia.

For years now, I keep getting anemic. When that happens my provider sends me for I/V iron. This time the anemia was way worse, so I got the blood transfusion.

Sometimed what seems like a psychological problem turns out to be a physical problem. I was surprised.

I still am anemic and have low stamina andow strength. So a close friend of mind says, "Don't go feeling sorry for yourself. I'll be listening to you. If I catch you feeling sorry for yourself, I'm going to remind you to stop it."

Well, she can kiss my southside, while I face north. I don't know what I said to bring on her giving me thaf admonition.
Soon. I'm going to explain to her that no one has the right to tell anyone else how they should, or shouldn't feel.

I got upset at her, but didn't let her know. Now I regard her as someone who is not safe to confide in.

With friends like that...!

Thank you, Luna. She loves to needle people and gets a big kick out of making others feel "less than." She's always calling me and wanting to spend time with me - more than I want to be around her. I think I'm going to distance myself for awhile.

I told her I was prescribed some Ativan for my anxiety. She responded that she prefers to pray to God and calm herself in a natural way. I'm getting sick of listening to her.

I felt so bad for months that I couldn't seem to push myself into getting off the couch much. Then one eve I came home from the store and could barely carry in a few bags of groceries. I could barely walk from one room to another. So I went to the hospital ER. They kept me for 5 days. They said I was so anemic that I needed a blood transfusion. They think I have a slow GI bleed. I got scoped top and bottom, but they could not find a bleeding site. So I have more tests to go through. And I'm still quite anemic now. I thought I was just getting lazy.

When I got out of the hospital, a friend of mine gave me a big lecture on not feeling sorry for myself. I don't. And Idon't know what inspired her to give me that lecture. She further said she's going to watch my moods and keep after me, if she thinks I'm feeling sorry for myself. I have decided that she can go eff herself. Some people like to kick you when you're down.

Some people feel the need to push or tell others their beliefs, without thinking of how the other would feel. And then others don't say what they feel about how the other spoke. Both ends of the situation stinks. Neither is right.

I honestly wish more people listened and didn't just speak about what they believe, but rather the emotions behind why one or the other feels in the moment.

When emotions are left out there, and then hidden, nothing can change, and emotions eat at people.

Rose, it seems like you were ignored and had your friends beliefs pushed at you and you felt it best to not be judged farther for your emotions. Which at the time felt the best course of action.

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Yes. She doesn't realize how insensitive she sounds at times. She's always calling me, and she wonders why I don't call her more often.

I appreciate the posts above. Lately I haven't had the energy to even check my threads. Maybe that will improve. I go for an intravenous iron infusion tomorrow. Lack of iron in the blood has quite an effect on the brain . . . beyond what I ever realized.