[will19]

I've been having some anxiety and depression today. It's all about my trip coming up in a few days from now. It's been a long time waiting to go since I had planned this some time ago but didn't do it because of the pandemic last year. This is what I call a personal/business trip, it's more like business than it is pleasure. I'm going to scout out the area to see if I want to move there.

I feel depressed that I'm having to move out of where I am now because it's too costly and there's not much greatness going for me here. This sort of reminds me of that song "Driving My Life Away" by Eddie Rabbit.

Other than that, I took a long bike ride today and it was an ideal day to do it. Very bright and sunny but the air was nice, cool, and crisp. An ideal kind of day for a bike ride.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling sad and lonely. My family doesn't treat me well. For the most part, they don't care about me. I need to find my own tribe. I'm trying. I have some good friends. I need to try to make more friends, especially in my games.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm feeling a combination of gratitude & sadness.

[cinnamonsun]

I have grief and sadness in my heart for what I've had to let go of. But also, optimism that I can meet new people and find a new community. I miss, more than anything, having a creative outlet. Where I can share my poetry, writing, creativity, and randomly inspired thoughts. I am seeking a new place to do this. I'm sure one can be found.

Change is scary and can leave you breathless and vulnerable because it's unfamiliar. It never feels that good to leave a comfort zone. And your mind might say a lot of things that are untrue about why you need this change. But deep down, we all need change sometimes, right? If we are to grow and evolve. I think stagnation can be more suffocating than change. This is what I'm thinking about this morning with my tea.

[regretful]

It is such a sense of despair that I feel. I was weeping last night for the first time in quite a while; maybe that's a sign of progress because I'm actually "feeling" this depression now? I do hope so. As usual, I wish all of you well in your struggle with this invisible and persistent annoying monster.

[Mountaindewed]

It’s gloomy and fall like outside but all it’s doing is making me avoid my scary podcasts. I’m not really feeling any depression today. I haven’t for awhile.

I was really prepared for **** to really hit the fan. But it hasn’t.

[cinnamonsun]

Things are finally looking up. I've been on a waiting list for therapy since June. Next week, I finally will begin therapy. I feel a deep sense of gratitude. My depression is slowly getting better after making some hard choices to make changes in my life. I feel relieved and liberated. Today I felt more awake and had more energy than I've had in a while. My inner self-talk has been loving and encouraging today.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by cinnamonsun

I have grief and sadness in my heart for what I've had to let go of. But also, optimism that I can meet new people and find a new community. I miss, more than anything, having a creative outlet. Where I can share my poetry, writing, creativity, and randomly inspired thoughts. I am seeking a new place to do this. I'm sure one can be found.

Change is scary and can leave you breathless and vulnerable because it's unfamiliar. It never feels that good to leave a comfort zone. And your mind might say a lot of things that are untrue about why you need this change. But deep down, we all need change sometimes, right? If we are to grow and evolve. I think stagnation can be more suffocating than change. This is what I'm thinking about this morning with my tea.

Thank you!! I feel so much of what you say! Please stick around!

[will19]

I'm feeling some ups and downs about my upcoming trip. I still have some anxiety about going, but I feel like I must do it. I spent some time this afternoon getting stuff together.

Today I was on the phone with my only friend and sister. Those two are the only people I have to converse with. For some reason I felt like speaking to those two depressed me. I seem to want other people in my life and not be so reliant on them. I get the feeling that my friend and sister feel the same way about me. I guess we're hanging on to each other because that's all there is for us.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by regretful

It is such a sense of despair that I feel. I was weeping last night for the first time in quite a while; maybe that's a sign of progress because I'm actually "feeling" this depression now? I do hope so. As usual, I wish all of you well in your struggle with this invisible and persistent annoying monster.

Thank you! And God bless you! I can so relate!

I have to say goodbye to someone today I've known for a long time. she's coming to see me later. I have a card for her, and we're probably going to have a hug

I hate goodbyes, but needs must..

[Mountaindewed]

Yeah I’m pretty depressed today. I’m not sure why. I woke up like this then things just happened one after another. I keep thinking I’ll feel better after I take a nap. Often I do feel better. But I keep fighting it.

[Buffy01]

I wish my sister and niece and my niece boyfriend would stop being rude to me and hurting my feelings. Or blaming me for things that they did.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I wish my sister and niece and my niece boyfriend would stop being rude to me and hurting my feelings. Or blaming me for things that they did.

I'm so sorry, Buffy. I think I can make some voodoo dolls that will get rid of this problem.

[regretful]

Friday morning. Not much has changed. Difficult sleep last night. And facing, daily, the challenges of keeping a business running in these trying times; complicating matters is that I've lost interest in the business years ago. I think that this is the source of my depression - because prior to owning a business, I did not experience these lows. I wish all of you well in your personal struggle with this invisible beast.

[will19]

My day is just starting as of right now. I felt depressed this morning. Tomorrow is a big day for me. I'm going on a trip, a couple thousand miles away from home for a week. I'm going through pre-travel anxiety I guess. I plan to do a lot of small stuff to get ready.

[Pavlov's Cat]

I have been having emotional depression.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have quite a number of backburner missions/responsibilities nagging me all the time. So my laziness (or whatever) is making me sad & ashamed of myself. I have recently succeeded at accomplishing some difficult (for me) goals. I felt uplifted by that. But today one of my backburner things feels like an emergency, so I have a lot of anxiety about that, & it's my own fault. I'm hoping so much that I will fix this very soon.

[Deilla]

I have a mix of emotions today. I'm relieved that my sister will be fine, I'm sad for a friend and I'm anxious about leaving my house for a drive. The anxiety is the worse thing. I feel bad that it's winning.

depressed.

no special reason... just the usual **** all going on and the usual 0 sleep

highlight of today I think is going to get my paddington bear dvd (it should be coming this afternoon)

it even comes with a soft paddington bear stuffed toy.. and I have to say, I'm thrilled. I just hope the dvd lives up to how good it is

once again I am an adult woman escaping in to the land of the child. **** it, it's worth it and beats my present life