[hvert]

I feel like taking the month off. Is it SAD? I don't know. I don't feel like doing anything, not work things, not fun things.

[will19]

I can see the decorations up at various places and they look nice. But I'm not in the holiday spirit. I think I never will be. Now I have some anxiety because I have a Dermatology appointment next Monday morning. Lately I've noticed that there's a small bump on my face. I can't get a real good look at it from where it's located. So I'm worried about it. Or there may be something else that's wrong.

I also feel unmotivated to try and change things for better and I really need to. I especially need to research and plan to line up another place to live because I can't afford to stay at where I am much longer. I don't know where to go or how to execute a plan to move. The area where I am is hopeless as far as being able to find something affordable. Plus there isn't a good reason why I should stay. If I left, I feel that I wouldn't leave much behind except for great weather.

[Deilla]

I had a good day. A few bumps along the way but I made it. I survived. I did the best I could.

[will19]

It was a busy day for most of it. In the afternoon it was raining so no bike ride. It made me feel depressed.

Got a gift from my sister in the mail today. It was a predictable gift - I get the same thing of what she sends every year. It's nice but it gets old after a while. Also I got talking to her but didn't feel so good afterwards. It feels like something is off with her and I don't know what it is.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been doing ok most of the day.

[T4bbyCat]

Need to sell off or get rid off most of my unnecessary possessions accumulated over the years. A lot of it is troublesome, especially given increasing burglaries and crime. Wish I never bought most of it.

[hvert]

I'm really struggling to 'snap out of it.' I have just felt so unmotivated all week.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm doing ok at the moment. More ups than downs.

[3rd rock]

I don't know if it's just the influence of long-term, chronic depression, but I don't like to read or write novels with happy endings. When I write about relationships, I always write relationships that end badly, often bitterly, with characters either already apart or in the process of breaking up.

[Deilla]

I'm having a hard time sleeping. I keep waking up. I feel really stressed. I just want to sleep.

[will19]

I didn't sleep well last night because I was blowing my nose for half the night. I'm still struggling with it today. It's not a cold. It's something that happens to me once in a while. I get deep into depression when I don't get a good night's sleep.

I have a dermatologist appointment next Monday and I'm nervous about it. I wish I didn't have to deal with it.

[Rose76]

I got a pneumonia vaccine yesterday. Woke up at 3 a.m. with a very sore arm. I stayed in p.j.s all day today.

I've been doing quite well. I just have to fight being lazy. Got my place cleaned up and decorated for Christmas. The tree looks okay. Something about those LED lights on my pre-lit tree that looks weird.

[will19]

Yesterday I decided to recall my ex-friend. I thought things over and I missed him. But I was wondering if it's loneliness that was talking to me. We talked on the phone last night. He told me that a couple of weeks ago, he wanted to visit and talk to me, since his wife was going to be close to where I live. If he had contacted me at that time after I had split up with him, I would have welcomed him. After all, it was a time a few weeks ago when he was near my place and didn't want to come over; and that's what did it for me about him.

A gloomy and cold day today. This morning I went to the Dermatologist for a check up and it all went well. No problems this time, thank goodness! The dermatologist seemed very nice this morning. The last time I went to him, he seemed stressed out and there was a problem. So now I'm feeling like some heavy weights have been taken off my shoulders. It's a nice feeling for now.

[3rd rock]

I admit that sometimes seeing others do things I can't makes me feel sad.

[3rd rock]

I'm in a lot of pain tonight. I work at night and I'm only halfway through my shift. I will call in sick tomorrow night.

[regretful]

Started a very mild dose of Lexapro - 5 mg...I know that it's less that generally recommended, but I'm so susceptible to side-effects that this was the most prudent course of action. I'm about 12 days into it; dealing with a lot of anxiety and an upset stomach. Hoping that it will pass. I sincerely wish all of you well in your personal struggle against this invisible monster.

[Deilla]

Things aren't tasting well. I'm hungry, but my food tastes bad. And I don't even like my drinks. I don't know what's wrong. I sort of feel nauseous.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm not doing very well.

[WovenGalaxy]

Hi. I have a pretty low mood today and I've been noticing my thoughts have gotten super critical of myself for about a week now. Seeing the inner snake thread helped a little.

[3rd rock]

I have only six more work days until my vacation. I'm feeling extremely anxious.