[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed lately again.

[Deilla]

I'm getting the booster shot this morning. I am nervous about going. I'm trying to take in deep breaths and relax.

[cinnamonsun]

Some days...a lot of days...there is no hunger or interest in food.
I snack on this or that, to keep my blood sugar up. But I might have one real meal a day. It's hard to feel motivated or interested.
I weigh 133 pounds. I don't think I need to lose weight. I am fine with my body image. It's hard to find anything I want to eat. Nothing is appealing.

I'm content right now with grazing, at least I'm eating something.
Sometimes, this is what depression looks like.

[hvert]

Feeling stressed today. Stressed about money, stressed about unfinished projects, feeling like there's not enough time in the day.

[Deilla]

I also feel stressed. I'm waiting on a phone call. The receptionist acts like she doesn't know who I am. I'm a client. I expect a phone call. I've already paid money for this service. It's just stressful. I need to relax. It's hard to play my games when I don't know if I'll be interrupted by a phone call.

[will19]

Not a great day for me emotionally today. I had to argue with the utility company because of the last payment I made had insufficient funds. I had enough money in my checking account to cover what I had to pay. And my bank told me that there was no recent attempt by that utility company on record to cash my check. This also had happened a couple of months ago with that utility company.

This afternoon I called an old friend of mine. He messaged me a week ago saying he was going to call me but he never did. He didn't sound too good to me when I talked to him. He sounded tired and told me that he has been having some falls. So that doesn't sound too good to me.

I was going to go on a bike ride but didn't because of rain. The rain came just as I was going out. Oh well. Also it's been a gloomy day and people seem to be unhappy.

[3rd rock]

I have submitted my latest novel. I only have to wait a little while before it's approved and starts showing up for sale. Now I have to work on formatting the paperback version, which shouldn't take very long.

[Deilla]

I can't sleep. I feel like I should be doing things. I am trying to chill. I sort of feel relaxed. I am doing chores, so I feel productive, which is good.

[Mountaindewed]

I am depressed today but I swear it’s not post op. I just feel bad that I’m not doing anything with my life. I’m not depressed about anything in particular besides thanksgiving. I mean I still feel like my surgery was a success so I don’t really think it’s post op depression. Some days are better then others but I honestly don’t think it’s surgery related. It could be SAD related though.

[hvert]

I've read that the side effects from anesthesia can linger for months, fwiw.

I feel sort of positive today, or like I have no reason not to at least feel neutral.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really down today there is no reason for me to be this down especially since I started taking medicine for my anxiety and depression. I feel like I need to cry today

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed lately especially today. Everything today just feel really bad and really down and really hurt. I been having some really bad days lately especially in the past week :sadhug: :grouphug:

[Mountaindewed]

I’m still down. I feel like it’s already day lights savings. Whatever one happens in the fall. I can never remember. My mom got blackout curtains for me and they aren’t exactly helpful. It’s still tough knowing what type of depression I’m feeling. I know it’s not Covid depression anymore. Or depression about my old therapist. Those both seem to have finally passed. I don’t know. I’m just frustrated right now.

I’m having some pain that could possibly be surgery related. Who knows. Plus I’ve had those am I recovering fast enough thoughts today. My therapist has been working through them with me and she’s made some good points.

[Deilla]

I slept most of today. I'm only up now cause I have stupid therapy. It will be pointless.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

An up! I just discovered something that changed a painful belief that wasn't true. :)

I wished that I knew how to do that.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by regretful

Depression does not seem to want to relent one bit. Awakened rather early today (4 AM) and then could not get back to sleep. So goes the day thus far...It would be nice to have some relief; the real relief is that it is Friday, but it's a small consolation as the depression has me in such a state that I just want to be alone when I get home...I do wish all of you well in your struggle against this terrible and invisible demon.

I hear you. I can’t sleep either. I hate feeling depressed.

[Rose76]

After doing pretty well for a decent period of time, I'm now in a tailspin. That's my pattern. Depressive episodes don't last forever with me. Neither does feeling really well. It's a cycle that repeats and repeats.

I'm telling myself that this depressed mood will lift eventually, like it always does. I can help that happen, if I make the effort to get out of bed and off the couch and take care of business. I got all caught up on laundry and made some progress on my pre-holiday annual big cleaning. But now I don't feel like doing anything.

I'm kind of isolated, more or less by choice. That may be part of my problem. But I just don't feel like mingling.

[Breaking Dawn]

I did pretty good today.

[Rose76]

Now I have anxiety on top of depression. Just had a weepy spell. I just kind of choked it back.

Earlier I did get to the gym. Exercised for 1 hour - nothing too strenuous.

I have to keep remembering that this will pass.

[cinnamonsun]

I'm slowly becoming more positive and happier. But I am still not myself or who I used to be. My happiness and energy isn't bright or shiny any more. It's just quiet. A kind of quiet peace. It's like I'm only half alive. But more alive than I was. So it's an improvement. My psych doc said I seemed stable. I'm like...yeah. I'm stable. But there's room for improvement.