[shamon86]

The past 2 nights I've been down. I've got this feeling in the pit of my stomach that this isn't going away for a while. It doesn't feel like a moment of sadness, it feels like how I usually do when I'm feeling depressed. It's too familiar of a feeling.

And then I think, it's only been 2 nights. it's too early to tell how the next few days or weeks will go. And on top of that, I have no reason to feel this way. Things haven't been great, but I've been dealing with them way better then I have in the past.

One of the things that may have triggered this:
My T told me in our last session that he thinks it's time for us to move our sessions to once a month. We had only gone from seeing him weekly to once every other week a few sessions ago. It was a mutual decision and he let me know well ahead of time this is what was going to happen, but this moving to one a month seems sudden. We're supposed to talk about it in our next session, but I switched jobs recently and my new benefits won't kick in until November. So I guess this will be a good trial run since I can't afford to see him again until then.

I know I'm over thinking everything, it is after all what I do best. So what do you think? Can you feel a depressive episode coming on pretty quickly? Do you think that by thinking that way it's just becoming a self fulfilling prophecy?

I don't feel it coming on.

for me it's happened even before it's happened if that makes sense

I can't do anything about it not happening, because it's all ready happened