Social issues. Anyone else ?

My big struggle in the past have been social issues. Started since young, etc, etc.

The problem now is that I dont like people. I dont have problems like talking, keeping conversations, or being with people, etc.

I have to admit that Im a strange person.

People seem to "follow a line", like if all "talk the same language", I mean... they behave in a way I dont behave. The jokes they make... the way they express... how they talk... etc... its not the way I do.

Being frank, I feel quite nerveous around people. Ive deal with some social anxiety, but nothing too big. Its just Ive never been "normal", Im always "the strage one". Its long to talk about but it has been like that.

Just by seeing people I feel a strange feeling. It doesnt happen with everyone, all the time, and its not something that "paralizes" me. Its just a strange feeling.

I feel smarter than everyone.

And I am extremely polite. I talk slow, paused.

Anyway, the thng is that I feel between people and me there is a giant gap. They are strange to me, and I am strange to them.

In informal social meetings I feel I have to act, and follow the way they behave, its like "I dont like you, but Im here, so Im just gonna follow they way you all act to fit". Never find people I like, its always me having to adapt to them.

Say "people" is just a generalization, people isnt all the same, bla bla. Im not looking for advices.

Does anyone have problems like this ?

I'm a very strange person. I was philosophy teacher. Sadly my English is not very good. I think it takes a bit of a strange type of person to be attracted to philosophy and philosophy can tend to make a person a bit odd too.

Being philosopher is like being building inspector. One goes into building and looks at its foundations to see if they are strong and sturdy. Often one sees cracks and damage. Things that seem solid to most people can look shaky to philosopher and things that look shaky to people can look solid to philosophers. Wish I could explain but I would need a better command of English language.

After studying and teaching philosophy I felt a bit like an alien in society.

Yes. Finding a friend feels like finding a needle in a haystack.

I often feel like I don't fit in. I have always been very different and I am for various reasons. I have a very high IQ, I'm empathic and intuitive. Creative and eccentric. The way I think, analyze, and have these what I like to call thought experiments or even social experiments I've done. I often seem strange to others. My level of thinking and perception is so different that even therapists said I've blown them away and I am far more insightful and perceptive than they are. It's very hard being in a world where your mind works differently. It's hard to connect to people and make friends. I have social anxiety myself. I wouldn't say I always have the best social skills. I would define myself as dorky and awkward, to be honest.

I've had a lot of bad experiences with people so I usually keep to myself. I'm what is called an introvert (who does have an extroverted side when my energy levels are higher). I'm so quiet sometimes, that people forget I'm even present. It's so hard to come out of my shell.

I guess what I'm saying, even though things are different for me, I relate to what you're saying.

I related pretty much to all you said. Just not sure about the part of "it's so hard to come out of my shell" for me.

About people, I feel I dont like those people. Do you feel the same ? Its not that I feel shy, Im myself, the problem is that I dont see them appealing. Do you also feel this ? Its not that I dont know how to behave, I feel they behave in a way its not appealing to me.