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Member Since Oct 2019
Location: Ghent, Belgium
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That's it, the energy tot write more is gone
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Member Since Nov 2021
Location: England
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#2
Are you ok?
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Member Since Oct 2019
Location: Ghent, Belgium
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Not at all. I've been hospitalized from Jan 2021 until Mar 2021 and after that, I enrolled in a one-year program (called psycho-social revalidation). Some things went wrong underway (I think especially the last months I have not been taken seriously when I was again bothered by anxiety and suicidal ideation) and I now feel worse than ever before. I'm sometimes thinking therapy didn't work because I had basically given up a year and a half ago but most of the times I believe I end up in this same pattern because my trying so hard is mistaken for being ok and therapists let go too quickly. It has become hard to trust anybody and various therapists have been messing up so badly over the course of 20 years, there is no way back.
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Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
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People mess up daily, even every second. Each person, including you, can improve skills, talents, and gain new skills. People mess up and can improve. Feeling like everything completely messed up and seeing therapists for years can show strength that you made it this far!! It seemed you wanted to ignore the feelings, what if instead you embraced those feelings and said "I can change, I can choose helping myself to feel good" or "No one can do this but me." Both statements are powerful.
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Member Since Oct 2004
Location: Kentucky, USA
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I gave up for 13 years after depression & anxiety hit. Many Sui close call tries. Think when my special doggie Leo was born, the Sui went away but the depression didn't. Not until I left the bad marriage I was in & moved 2100 miles away & bought my little farm in a town where I didn't know anyone did the depression go. Everyone said you can't run away from your troubles but depression did not follow me there. It was then I realized it had been situational depression that had been so disabling all those years. Still went to therapy & found the best T who helped me process everything I had gone through all my life that had exploded into the depression. Also I had gone through a trauma before I left & had some PTSD to deal with.
Obviously, depending on your situation, my life is proof there is a way back after giving up. Fully recovering took a lot of work on my part after I left. Definitely worth it because even with struggles & legal issues left over from the marriage, I have never felt happier or more at peace than I do now & I love my alone life on my little 10 acre farm. __________________ Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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Location: Cave.
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