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#901
I recovered from being sick. Feel tired. Trying to get motivated.
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#902
Ups & downs & otherwize. Hang in there dear ones.
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
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#903
I'm sleeping through the night.
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#904
I been feeling :sadhug really bad lately
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#905
I spent the day doing pretty much nothing. I actually feel pretty good. Tomorrow, I have to get some things done.
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#906
A pretty good day for me. I drove out to go shopping this morning. It's so nice to have my old routine back and I'm eating better now than from the last three weeks. Other than that, nothing much to report about.
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#907
I just had my depression medication :hug increased
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#908
I have a funeral to go to next week. I've been going to a lot of funerals lately. The fact that so many older people in my family are dying makes me ponder my own future. I don't have any children, and I'm not married. I haven't even been in a real relationship in many years. It makes me feel depressed because I know that once certain people pass away (like my mother, for instance) there will be no one there to care about me. I'll be well and truly alone. I don't like that the deaths and suffering of others makes me reflect on myself like this; it makes me feel like I'm a shallow person who only cares about what happens to me and how the suffering of others affects me. I should be selfless, not selfish.
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#909
The morning was OK but this afternoon felt long and draggy. Also it is gloomy outside.
I can resonate of what Third Rock said for myself. I'm not going to funerals, but other than that, I feel exactly the same way in my life. |
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#910
Having trouble with sadness.
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#911
It's almost 6 a.m. and I've been awake all night. Yesterday morning I accidentally took my evening meds, which made me go back to sleep till 2 p.m. So now my days and nights are reversed. Hope I can sleep now for a few hours and then get up.
My apartment is clean and orderly. That has helped my morale a great deal. |
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#912
Another gloomy day outside. It drizzled this morning but now it's overcast. I'll be going on my little bike ride pretty soon. Believe it or not, the cool and overcast conditions are ideal for me in bike riding.
I called my friend from college this morning. At first, when I called him, he didn't answer. Today is the eve of his appointment for the colonoscopy tomorrow. After he didn't return my call, I was worried that something may have happened to him. So I called back after two hours from the first time and got him. We had a pretty nice talk. I thought that I would calm his nerves for today. I called my local friend - telling him that I was worried about my friend. He didn't have much to say about it. Talking to him was alright except to mention from the newspaper that a local hospital had to lay off some staff because of patient's insurance refusing to pay for services. My friend sometimes has a knack for bringing things up that are upsetting. |
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#913
I feel like all of my emotions are all over :sadhug the place
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#914
I was busy this morning. I went shopping and then to the doctor's office for a small treatment, which wasn't much of anything. Feeling like I have worries a lot.
I worry now when I go out for a drive because of fearing that something could happen to my car. Funny thing is that, when I'm waiting at the doctor's office, I get all kinds of imaginations of struggling with bad health. Maybe that's normal when waiting at the doctor's office. |
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#915
I feel real good. I'ld almost say I feel great! I've done nothing today to deserve to feel so good. That makes me a little nervous . . . like, when's the other shoe gonna drop?
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#916
I did the laundry at 6 AM. I felt good doing it as it took up two hours of my time. I enjoy doing laundry, however the one thing that stresses me out about it is if I go the washers and they are already taken. That doesn't happen often. I felt good with the process but now that it's over with and I feel let down. On the other hand I feel like it's insane of me to get up that early when I don't have to.
While I was folding the laundry I was listening to music but was a bit miffed when the speakers connected to my laptop were not sounding good. It was one speaker out of a pair not working, so that was the problem. At first I thought about going out to buy a new one, but I ended up ordering online instead. I felt guilty about it because I feel like I have to pay a little bit more and felt ashamed for not feeling like going out to pick up one myself. Nothing much going on now and for the rest of the day. I can relate to what Rose had to say about feeling good and then worry if the other shoe is going to drop. |
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#917
I feel like crap. Everything hurts and I can’t stop crying, nor do I feel like watching Drew today. I - I just want to disappear into the void for awhile.
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#918
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#919
The sun came out for the first time in a while today. Usually, It's cathartic and it does honestly make me feel better, makes me feel something.
Nothing. Not a single feeling, not a care. No spark. I know how bad it is now. Insomnia and the nightmares are back, my sleep is shot to pieces and I feel absolutely exhausted. I really shouldn't be alone at the moment, but also no one seems to notice so that works I guess. It's not a problem if the mask stays up. It just doesn't seem to mean much today.. Maybe it'll be better tomorrow, maybe it won't. Maybe it'll rain, maybe it'll be grey skies. __________________ "And right here is where we store our sanity. As you can see, it's currently missing" Last edited by Aardwolf; Apr 20, 2023 at 05:16 PM.. Reason: Memory |
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#920
I'm having trouble with self-care. I do my work day cause that's important. But I'm important too. I just don't have the physical energy to take care of myself.
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