[will19]

I had a pretty good day today. I was busy in the morning with some light shopping. I was busy in the afternoon also. I got myself a nice dinner for tonight; something I haven't had in a long time.

[Buffy01]

I woke up feeling awful :sadhug today for no reason

[will19]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I woke up feeling awful :sadhug today for no reason

Sorry to hear that. It happens to me a lot.

[3rd rock]

I went to a burial this week. It was for an uncle, my mother's brother. I am feeling kind of depressed because of all the deaths in the family of late. Of my grandparents' generation, only one remains, one of my mother's aunts. And of my parents generations, a few have died. It makes me ponder my own mortality. It also makes me think that my own failure to form meaningful relationships means that when I ultimately die there will be no one to be there when I finally die. I should meet a nice woman and have children. But I can't because I'm too socially retarded to form real relationships. I'm sorry for the profane language in this post, but it's just how I feel.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Sorry to hear that. It happens to me a lot.

That is so true

[will19]

I was busy this morning but nothing much after lunch. I called a friend of mine from college to wish him a happy birthday. I felt like it didn't go well.

I have a lot to do tomorrow morning.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I went to a burial this week. It was for an uncle, my mother's brother. I am feeling kind of depressed because of all the deaths in the family of late. Of my grandparents' generation, only one remains, one of my mother's aunts. And of my parents generations, a few have died. It makes me ponder my own mortality. It also makes me think that my own failure to form meaningful relationships means that when I ultimately die there will be no one to be there when I finally die. I should meet a nice woman and have children. But I can't because I'm too socially retarded to form real relationships. I'm sorry for the profane language in this post, but it's just how I feel.

I’m very sorry :hug for your :hug loss. Grief can cause depression to become worse.

[will19]

Had some ups and downs with my depression today. That's to be expected, I guess. I was busy this morning with an errand and taking care of the month end/beginning bills. I felt bad in bed before getting out but felt only a little bit better in the morning. I felt like I was over the bad feelings after a work out and lunch.

[Buffy01]

I been watching Louise Hay you can heal your life

[hiddenaway]

Ever feel like absolute garbage to the point where you just know you won’t want to get out of bed in the morning?

Well, that’s exactly how I feel. I’m hoping a good night’s sleep might help, but I don’t think it’s likely. Depression is fun. #not

[will19]

This day is just starting as of now and I'm already feeling depressed and stressed. My only friend left town this morning for a week to go on a small cruise. In my opinion I feel like he shouldn't go. He's not in great shape physically. I already miss him.

It seems like the place I'm living at is going wonky lately. We're getting all kinds of messages from the manager about people disobeying proper rules in a lot of ways. I don't feel like I'm guilty of those items but the heavy messaging about it makes me feel that I am. I told my friend about it a couple of days ago and says that it could be a sign that the apartment complex could be up for sale. That's probably why the pressure is on.

I just came back from grocery shopping and it cost more than I thought it would. And then I had to deal with a crazy remodeling project going on at the store.

I'm feeling like my nice world (for what little there is left of it) is heading for a collapse.

[Rose76]

I'm taking way too long to get things done. I've gotten content with being lazy. I gotta start making a schedule.

[will19]

I was feeling alright early this morning and it looked like things are going to be better. But all of the good feeling and hopes dashed later on. I'm not feeling that well tonight emotionally.

[Rose76]

Having some anxiety. I get tired too easily.

[stahrgeyzer]

I'm in my depression cycle for awhile now. Hope it ends soon.

[will19]

I'm feeling a better lately. My social life seems to be picking up a little bit, which is what I was hoping for. It feels scary. Like I'm being set up for some kind of a big fall. My mind has always worked that way. Maybe it's because of what it was like when I was growing up.

My friend has been calling me quite a few times since he's been away which is nice. What I don't understand is that he's on a small cruise and all he talks about is the food & service on the small ship and nothing else. He hasn't been off to explore any of the places where the ship stops at like others have. All along I thought it wasn't a good idea for him to go on that trip because he can't see & hear well and has other health issues.

[Buffy01]

i feel really bad because my sister messed with interview for the paper work that i needed

[Rose76]

I had a very good day, thanks to getting up before dawn and tackling stuff. I feel so good about what I accomplished.

[will19]

A quiet day mostly. I did my laundry early in the morning, but when it was finished, then I didn't have much to do and a lot of free time remaining.

My friend is supposed to be back from his trip tomorrow. I don't know what time; probably in the evening. Lately I haven't heard much from him. Maybe it's because of the communications are not available. I worry about him because I never thought it was a good idea for him to go on that trip. So far he's doing alright and I hope something doesn't happen to him before his return here.

I got an email from my college friend and that was nice. I was worried because I called him on his birthday on the 1st of this month and felt like it didn't go well. He didn't say anything about being upset with me.

[3rd rock]

I stayed home from work tonight. I had mild, cold-like symptoms today. I could've probably gone to work, but I chose to call in sick anyways. I am still using up my paid sick days from work, so I hope it won't be a problem. I'm choosing to use the night instead to work on my writing, although I'm not hopeful for it.