[will19]

Another dull and hot day for me today. Once again I didn't sleep well because of the heat. It was slightly cooler last night than it's been before. But not cooler enough for me! So far the only highlight of the day was that I went to the drug store down the road and bought some items to take care of my teeth. These items are never sold in a regular supermarket. And it was a special senior's discount today, so I saved a lot.

Nothing much lined up for tonight. Well, I don't do much at night anyways. I hope I will feel better when this heat spell ends. I just heard that there were some power outages near where I live because of the grids being overloaded. I'm fortunate that I don't need to turn on the A/C.

[Breaking Dawn]

Like some of you I've been having a hard time, and I'm hanging in there.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Like some of you I've been having a hard time, and I'm hanging in there.

(((Breaking Dawn)))
You give me the courage to go on. I hope you feel better soon. I'm hanging in there too.

[will19]

Having anxiety and depression mainly about what I should do for myself in the future since I feel like I'm not in the right place now. All of the heat and humidity we're having lately is not helping me along with not sleeping well because of it. Tonight the low temp. will be 80 degrees. That's not the high, that's the lowest it will be overnight. Great!

Yesterday I got into a nice conversation with a woman neighbor. She tells me that she's had tremendous struggles with depression. It's nice for me to talk with someone who understands it all. I hope I made her feel better. I haven't given her any suggestions on what she can or should do for herself. She acts like she likes my insights as to what I say. I'm not much into giving others suggestions and/or advice when they don't ask for it from me. She gave me some but it seems like it was stuff I've heard before. She seems like a caring person.

[Mountaindewed]

I just have a lot on my mind I'm not sure I'd call it straight up depression though. Although I didn't see anyone in a particularly cheery mood while I was out. Everyone seemed a bit down today, probably to be expected.

[Breaking Dawn]

Feeling down, but think of how it might be later.

[will19]

It's still very warm outside, however, we're having all-day rains. Even though it's muggy it feels refreshing being in the rain a little bit and some breezes help. I still haven't slept well and that wreaks havoc on my depression and anxiety.

Nothing much went on today except for grocery shopping and a little exercise. No bike riding today because it's too wet. So I'm cooped up inside.

[Deilla]

I've been physically ill today. Emotionally, I'm not doing well. I'm trying to relax now. I will go to bed early.

[jmariah001]

It's been a while since I've been on. My mood is falling like a stone. I tried the 988 number earlier. It seemed to help a little. My Grandma is in her last days. Although I am not that close to her, it's still sad. I also have trouble with my mood now that fall is coming. I have SAD. I have to call my pdoc tomorrow and get referred to a therapist before I do something stupid.

[hvert]

I hope we all get a little respite soon. I have to make some phone calls today that I am not looking forward to.

[will19]

A pretty good day today. In the afternoon I went to see my Primary Care Physician and it went well. It's still a bit warm outside but cooling off.

[Deilla]

I've been feeling so sick lately, that I went to the ER. My doctor said that was the best place for me to go. I had to call 911 for an ambulance. I'm home now and doing better.

[3rd rock]

I really don't like my life. It's absolutely impossible to get published. I've made nearly 120 submissions and I haven't gotten back a single request for the manuscript. I can rationalize this failure any number of ways, but at the end of the day I'm still unpublished. I have exactly one dream, one goal in life, and even when I'm at my absolute best I still can't accomplish it. I should just give up and content myself to the miserable, unremarkable little existence I've got. For the next thirty years I'm going to be stuck in this pointless rut. All my dreams of success as an author, of moving out into the countryside and living in peace and quiet, it's all for nothing. I'm stuck in this dank, nearly-unlivable apartment, in this concrete urinal of a city, with absolutely no chance of happiness, or even fulfilment.

On the upside, I continue to pay down debt. I expect to be debt-free by the end of next year. Then I can begin saving for retirement. I figure my mid-30s is as good a time as any to start. Hopefully between government social security, my union pension, and any investments I'm able to make over 30 years of savings, I may be in a position to retire by 65.

i can not stop thinking about the hundrereds and thousands... possibly millions of hours of life I've wasted

and that includes today

bleh

[Breaking Dawn]

Very difficult today.

[OafFish]

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

[Violetta75]

My anxiety is high even with the meds which i've had for mqny years..... they don't really do much anymore but put chemicals in my brain that my brain used to be able to make on its own. my life isn't totally hopeless, i've got to remember there can be good days ahead

[Breaking Dawn]

Today was not wonderful. And I think I'm hungry.

[3rd rock]

I really don't want to go to work tomorrow.

[will19]

I've been sleeping better lately. It helps when the weather cools down. And now it's about 15 degrees cooler than it was last week. This morning is cool and cloudy. Other people I know feel letdown when it's like this after hot and sunny times. Not me! I tend to me more cheery when it gets kind of cold and cloudy. Maybe that's weird, but that's me!