I have been struggling with this thought lately.

I am getting older, I am " slowing down", I am in more pain than ever and I am just tired.

in adition, I have been watching some distressing sceens on a soap opera involving

Possible trigger:

a woman who is dying of terminal cancer

on monday's episode, she had a meeting with the palliative care nurse, and she was telling her how she was struggling and how, even though she was accepting of what was going to happen to her, she still wished for ab it more time.

and her words ecchoed with me

I've accepted I'm not going to get any better, accept that my abuse is part of me, but like her I am just so tired and so done with it all

while I watching it, I could picture myself saying all that stuff to the nurse- especially the part about being tired

and I'm 25

sucks right?

[MaverickLovesYou]

Me too. Major brain fog today

[moodyblue83]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I have been struggling with this thought lately.

I am getting older, I am " slowing down", I am in more pain than ever and I am just tired.

I've accepted I'm not going to get any better, accept that my abuse is part of me, but like her I am just so tired and so done with

sucks right?

Its hard to believe that a 25 year old wrote the above. But it doesn’t matter.
My point here is to say how much I feel like you said. I’m tired and in pain.
My life is meaningless and I’m ready to call it a day. Of course you don’t naturally want to feel like this but I can’t help it. I’m gonna try and hang in there because I’m religious to a certain degree and it’s against my faith to take my life. I’ll just live one moment at a time. The answers are out there , just have to find them.