[Rose76]

I'm still doing real well. I was just outside filling my bird feeders and watering my plants. I guess I it took a while for me to recover from my feelings being hurt by a family situation back in May. I didn't think I would recover . . . but I did. I always do, eventually. I must remember that the next time I feel wounded by something. I'm lucky. The lows are are dismal to go thru, but they don't last for a long time, though it can feel like they do.

[Albatross2008]

Sometimes I feel like the whole world has me on Ignore.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Arbie

Sometimes I feel like the whole world has me on Ignore.

Honestly, i didnt know how to take your posts about how to start a fight. They kinda put me off. But now you are starting to share more, and i am understanding and hearing you more.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

Sorry. My apologises. I didn’t express myself well. It wasn’t a piece of advise. It was only a wish.
I know it’s hard. No way I was going to tell you that next day would be better. It was only a wish.
Kind of encouragement but I’m aware there’s no word that make you feel better. I know it.

It was encouragement to me

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

The only reason I haven't killed myself is my hope to avoid hurting my mother. As soon as she is dead. I will have no reason to avoid taking my own life. I estimate 30 years.

I completely understand because I’ve been there myself. I lost my brother in law to suicide and watched two of my brothers attempt. It will matter if you aren’t here anymore.

[Rose76]

I'm still doing well. I almost took a nose dive earlier, but I pulled out of it. I've been cooking good meals and keeping my place neat and tidy. That's half the battle.

[hiddenaway]

Today I’m doing okay but yesterday I unintentionally saw something that triggered my tokophobia (fear of pregnancy/childbirth) and now I’m really, really wishing that fb had a filtering system so there’d be less chance of it happening again.

[emily1890]

struggling to find anything good about today, honestly

it's not even because I've had no sleep, but it's because once again, for the 50th million day in a row, I am doing absolutely nothing with my life

I feel like I'm stuck in the movie groundhog day and it's not a very nice version of it

[iscreamparty]

I just got out of the hospital and it's confirmed I have depression and a personality disorder. I'm just happy to have a name to put to my struggles. They put me on medication and it's helping some. But I feel weird being home now. Have to feed myself, remember to take my meds on my own, structure my days by myself, so on and so forth. And there's no magic lorazepam injection if I have a meltdown. They didn't even give me the pills because they don't trust me with benzodiazepines. I'm "as safe as I'll ever be" (as the doctor put it, she thinks I will always and forever be a risk to myself and others so it'd be pointless to keep me in the hospital until I'm "safe").I still feel like a turd. I know it's going to take a lot more than one hospitalization to fix depression and BPD, but at least I'm starting to get real help.

[Jedi67]

Started the day early. Took a shower! Came downstairs and took my psych meds and put some topical pain cream on my knee. Having a Gatorade now then some java and breakfast later. Going to listen to some spotify and read a while. My mood is okay but I'm a little agitated from my pain. I'll be using some coping techniques to deal. Not feeling terribly depressed or hypomanic.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm still doing well. I almost took a nose dive earlier, but I pulled out of it. I've been cooking good meals and keeping my place neat and tidy. That's half the battle.

So good, Rose. 😀 I’m happy for you. You DO it, you especially DO it possible. 👏👏👏

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by emily1890

struggling to find anything good about today, honestly

it's not even because I've had no sleep, but it's because once again, for the 50th million day in a row, I am doing absolutely nothing with my life

I feel like I'm stuck in the movie groundhog day and it's not a very nice version of it

Maybe you need that time. Another different thing is if you can afford it but definitely you need it to take strength to give steps forward. Do you see it as I do, as well?

[Jedi67]

I've had entire weeks go by like "Groundhog Day" I can relate. I try to break up my routine a bit after doing my morning basics. I'll listen to music, read, color, avoid news or anything that will affect my mood. I avoid social media also. I read affirmations too. It's hard but a little at a time. Hope you feel better. All the best!

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by iscreamparty

I just got out of the hospital and it's confirmed I have depression and a personality disorder. I'm just happy to have a name to put to my struggles. They put me on medication and it's helping some. But I feel weird being home now. Have to feed myself, remember to take my meds on my own, structure my days by myself, so on and so forth. And there's no magic lorazepam injection if I have a meltdown. They didn't even give me the pills because they don't trust me with benzodiazepines. I'm "as safe as I'll ever be" (as the doctor put it, she thinks I will always and forever be a risk to myself and others so it'd be pointless to keep me in the hospital until I'm "safe").I still feel like a turd. I know it's going to take a lot more than one hospitalization to fix depression and BPD, but at least I'm starting to get real help.

And what about therapy to fight your BDP disorder? Do they have a plan? I agree with you. It’s not relevant if I’m agree or not, but it’s a relief for many people to have a proper diagnosis.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Jedi67

I've had entire weeks go by like "Groundhog Day" I can relate. I try to break up my routine a bit after doing my morning basics. I'll listen to music, read, color, avoid news or anything that will affect my mood. I avoid social media also. I read affirmations too. It's hard but a little at a time. Hope you feel better. All the best!

Avoid news is sane and smart. 👍

[AzulOscuro]

I’m pretty well and hopeful. I learnt so many techniques from my psychologists that now that I’m at my worst, I’m coping pretty well.
I don’t want to express here the hard times I’m going through now because I know some people is going also through hard times and are very sensitive.
But, let’s leave it in me not having the best moments, just as my avatar shows.

[hiddenaway]

So far so good. Could do with more coffee, though.

[iscreamparty]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

And what about therapy to fight your BDP disorder? Do they have a plan? I agree with you. It’s not relevant if I’m agree or not, but it’s a relief for many people to have a proper diagnosis.

I'm doing a PHP starting tomorrow and I'm on a waiting list for a DBT group which could start in two weeks or two years... I do have an individual therapist that knows DBT too so while I'm not doing the group I'll be doing it with her.

[iscreamparty]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I’m pretty well and hopeful. I learnt so many techniques from my psychologists that now that I’m at my worst, I’m coping pretty well.
I don’t want to express here the hard times I’m going through now because I know some people is going also through hard times and are very sensitive.
But, let’s leave it in me not having the best moments, just as my avatar shows.

I hope your not so best moments end soon. Glad to hear you're coping well!

[hiddenaway]

Still not quite awake but I sort of abandoned my coffee so that’s on me.