[will19]

I felt a bit blue this morning. But I'm glad that the weekend is over. I felt better after lunch. I worked out in the late morning and had good music on like always. But there was work that had to be done out on the street nearby that was noisy, so that ruined the workout.

[3rd rock]

I feel like I'm on the knife's edge, where I could go either way. I could get better and move past my current struggles with alcoholism, depression, and suicidality, or I could get worse and succumb to them once and for all.

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I feel like I'm on the knife's edge, where I could go either way. I could get better and move past my current struggles with alcoholism, depression, and suicidality, or I could get worse and succumb to them once and for all.

Hope you go with the first one and don’t get yourself fall. The temptation must be unbearable, sorry, folk.

[hiddenaway]

Relieved.

I think maybe Drew sensed how worried I was that he'd leave after this season cause when he was interviewed today, he said he doesn't want to give up TPIR.

I love him so much it's not funny.

[will19]

Today was an extremely dull day. I had to put up with a lot of noise as there were tree trimming and mulching just outside of my window. I think there will be more tomorrow as there's a little parking lot that's been coned off. What's weird is that they have that little lot coned off but no note on it saying when they will be there.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been feeling really down lately

[hiddenaway]

I just feel so drawn to Drew, like there's an invisible magnet pulling me towards him. He makes me feel safe and that's worth a lot.

[Buffy01]

I wish that I :eek knew what has caused me :sadhug to feel so bad about myself down and depressed feelings all the time

[Rose76]

I'm still doing pretty good, which is nice. One problem. I keep having bad dreams. This started just in recent months. Odd because 3 years ago - when I was newly alone - I seemed to never dream for a long time. The themes are weird. I just dreamed that my electricity went off and I couldn't find the fuse box outside. Awful tired today . . . but not depressed.

[3rd rock]

I'm feeling a bit better. I made it into work every day this week. I had a couple of meetings that went unexpectedly easily, although they were over minor issues. Next weekend is a long weekend, which I'm looking forward to. I did not contemplate suicide this past week. I ate very poorly, however I'm concerned with short term problems at the moment.

[will19]

I was busy this morning. Nothing much in the afternoon. It's been gloomy all day and no bike riding because it's been raining. That's unusual for this time of year at where I am. I'm feeling depressed with so much time and not having much to do.

I don't know what's going on outside of where I live. There's a little dirt parking lot (enough for five or six cars) for the place and a sign just got put up saying "no parking" for Monday; and it's going to last a whole month. For some time, I've had a fantasy that the apartment where I live may go through a change and we'd have to leave. I haven't heard anything, but you never know. I'm feeling a some inner turmoil but maybe I'm over exaggerating. I'm having anxiety thinking there might be some parking problems for a whole month now.